a spoonful of sugar….

some days the smile come

some days, the knives of words stab.

the sugar now soothes

an offhand remark caught me more than a glancing  thus overly meaningful blow.  it’s okay, I know i took it to mean more than intended.  It is further okay as i have sugar on hand to soothe the medicine of understanding.  here’s how to dampen the bitter, my way.


butterball brand sweet italian style turkey. saussage.

Hunt’s zesty and spicy pasta sauce

Barilla Brand farafel…. bowtie pasta one lbs.

I’m not aiming for high chefery style, i simply prepared this as dinner with many more lunches now in the freezer reminding me that temporarily I am my mother. 😉  I wanted to try the turkey version of italian sausage as obviously if i wish to stay on the diet restrictions given me and proven first time ever to actually duplicate progress, I shall be abstaining largely from the beef and pork as…haha. my doctor suggestion was…religion. 😉

this in most usa markets is available at walmart – which is where i found all of these things..  my store as yet doesn’t carry the hot version of turkey italian sausage. boo! 😉 lol.

the next offering is about a cup of plain greek yogurt with caldotomate powder, saffron, pumpking spice ground, garlic powder, redcayenne powder and far too much ground cumin. – no, nothing else while this mellows the yyogurt then marinates the ground chicken properly so i can aim for chicken meatballs on the shwarma side.

against my usual vein, I have next to me a sweetened tea.  it is a tazo brand

Tazo Passion.

(I don’t know where this one came from as I’m poaching sis’ tea.  big huge sinner!)

adding the sweet is truvia touch of brown sugar.


this elicited, “that looks like a bloody tampon!” as  i was dunking/stiring the  bags before discarding. about ten oz hot water two bags tea/tisane, one teaspoon of the sweetener then all over ice and a lot of it.  yes, waste a glass, burn in hades!  it’s that good.

or, I don’t think I get to tell you rave reviews vocally, but trumpet them as the sausage happens to be giving me gas and copiously.  this is a shame it tasted good, but may prove useful in case I hate people again 😀 😀 –  the dominos box of breadsticks leave me no room with the spaghetti, the peach monster tea, the coffee monster, …which both were very good but the last whoops them as if school children caught leaving afterschool to friends without telling people where they were going.

no, i could have not skipped the above paragraph. most of the time editing is the same as lying.  the whole truth is the truth one knows not to share but is precisely what is sought.- good and good and plenty windy, acid belly inducing etc.

Ilaugh as I start the day knowing i’m to expect via horoscope a visit! alllll day! clean up my house sag!…and get to work and our usual friday deliver didn’t arrive and i did just that “clean” whee.  this wasn’t my first thought mind you but yet again vague enough it can’t help but come true is the scene today lol.  I’m reminded again of the destined three some i’d be PART OF/but not actually as it turned out involved in…hmph.  funny funny funny how vague enough it cant help but come true that was too!  this before leaving work hearing a message of impacting truth that i take to a higher meaning than the context given and oh what a frown that has been!  or. I just had to cook otherwise instead of marinating! I’d probably be marinated.

now you can see for yourselves subtle changes at work that mean profound different approaches.  or, hum that song from mary poppins’  a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down, the medicine go down. – or i got cooking instead of pickling my day and night hangover awaiting me morning time.  this doesn’t mean my worry over approved financials means go house came although a nother timed form letter / email did. lol.  this doesn’t me any of my love’s hopes are suddenly shiney and or bright, they’re one or both still to others or themselves. – the paperwork saying good job! with or without raise is still days away.  I wont expect it til late late month anyways.  .  this doesn’t mean i’m doing cartwheels of joy either but i have the tailings of a smile.

may you enjoy one of your own.  if not, you can go make a mess in the kitchen and feel almost guilty!  nah, bliss!  I didn’t even technically yet create!  I wont know my blend til tomorrow when i smell whether I got the yogurt spiced right. :D- then another half day to see it gets in league with the meat./devil.


and yes, precisely because i WANT a “beer’ means now truly isn’t the time.  I’m better off without it.

ps, got some georgia peach cream and black cherry pip tbacco and pipe.  I may not get to say indubitably, my dear watson. but I have something different to be after in the specialness of times..  I will in fact be different.  not better but different 😉  because i mean to be 😉


two-ball, sliced pocket.

attempt #1

baked chicken meatballs

skipping critical ingredients and using normal oscar meyer turkey bacon which lent a taste better fitting to a bbq sauce dip than marinara.

attempt #2

(tbc’d likely next tuesday as i lack some tools and yogurt)


Courtesy of my facebooking, this seems to have merit as altered:

not chicken pieces marinated, but chicken mince/ground chicken handled  more gently as with the learning curve of chicken tacos…. to ATTEMPT retaining some texture.

as a “meatball” so i may freeze reheat more easily my lunch.

and as i lack the spices exactly, here’s the substitutions list

Cinnamon, alspice as pumpkin pie spice which is cinnamon, ginger, nutmeg and allspice ground – I have cinnamon additional to adjust some if needed

garlic and onion – more than LIKELY, I tend to disfavor raw garlic as I’m a foodie sinner so I most likely powder to keep this more mild.

I need a grounding and salt/paprika – or- chili powder edge so i have options in straight cayenne ground for the ouch or siracha for a citrus almost  but still ouchie or straight chili powder to a blander approach – please note this is a rarer time this is MEANT to be more area specific to tastes about “here” so I aim. to be lighter more than likely.

and to the optionalss: tomatoes, I have caldo tomate – a chicken tomato buillion powder so I can hit the salt and tomato aroma / savoryness.  but interestingly I also have some neglected saffron about too so i can most powerfully dent the savory aromas and also more yellow the dish as i lack tumeric for the moment and refuse to make due with a squirt of american yellow mustart which is but salt tumeric and mustard seed in a vinegar.

as i have a mini muffin tin,  i expect I’ll get something like the last adventure’s


which means I’m likely to have to slice a pocket of pita   or utilize the brown wheat tortillas i have. which mean’s I’m likely to get…

Turkey or Chicken Shawarma Lettuce Wraps | Buttoni’s Low-Carb Recipes
I suffer a moment’s doubt in the process of house purchasing.  don’t worry, I don’t think it’s a shambles forever!  just that it’s frustrating waiting for clearance  of necessary financials prior to making a proper offer which if anyonehas done so, I haven’t yet, might remind me is expensive business where waiting to cross t’s and dot i’s is more than likely a GREAT idea as is PATIENCE! 😉
but, if I am to pause, I have a nicety for the realtor in a BAD and incomprehensible set of symbologies/allusions.
now, remember first, this isn’t tequila but mezcal.
thus an awful pun, I mezcal-culated the irritations of this process! I may be waiting til july…. which to any proper salesperson is a sign of a simple word of encouragment.   but no joke, this is wearing on me as I must have my main income source cleared, yet what they wish no document exists for.  nor easy combination slam dunk.  proof over the life of the asked for loan i have income to achieve it settled correctly!  I mean like duh! 😉  so I must sweat this out like anyone right as mother’s day hits right after as memorial day hits, then school for family folk lets out and father’s day follow by the major rush to many to vacation yay!  or I don’t expect anything but snarls past july 4th weekend at least lol which expires my current timeframe letter so – I’m now just expecting “nerves”
now skip my pain for a moment, I’m likely over-reacting! 🙂   but keep in mind I mean it, if it were easy, I don’t want it.  I need this and a few achievements of lasting weight to mean something spiritually so I might just feel i have achieved where i didn’t feel i ever could before and thus can be more than surprised but pleased I worked for something/struggled to get and keep too.  blah
you’re likely now going to  need a link – this selection is from an article with everything i’ve ever learned about tasting notes to make an goode guess at something I HAVEN”T had.
obviously I had to hunt the sourcing down by individual offered brand names but I did that and had a minor rush to get this out before work…. so i likely eat five or so in convenience money lol instead of “the deal”
now the joke/ allusions get worse
‘m not feeling slinky but play on the sound of the name
del or the and maguey….moggy or stylized as mogeh like the canadians may eh everything 😉
worst, you understand the first notes to who this realtor is was he quite quit drinking after his heart attack.  so  this is MOST likely an elephant gift.  however, I’m very tempting so I maysee this as  a gift for the person intended.  it is after all not a cheap spirit nor without someserious style on a bit of a budget. 😀
or,   I simply wish to make dang sure i am not failing to keep option open, however in general I’m losing absolute faith in this place and feeling more eight balled than two balling and slicing a fine shot into the pocket lol  but agai9n! please note i’m not. kidding if it’s always EASY I gain nothing from my efforts as i had it hadbnded to me.  I don’t WANT easy, I want WON.  hard won but shhh I have a patience problem and a touch of minus confidence as i haven’t always WON out, survived sure, but rarely WON out. so it can. feel  again skip the aww pity party not the point at all just a truism.  I want something not coming easily and that’s far from bad just frustrating for the moment.
you couple this with trying to meet a few peoples, proceed  in a fullness at work and yet still explor?  maybe of course have some lasting luck companionship-wise? you’ll gain a smokey…and minerally essence over tropical fruit and HEAT this is a -0[rppf s[orot afterall. 😉
long finish too.
such is my now.  I’m e days away from finishing the six month probation period so as to go permanant  with paperwork lol pending and perhaps a minor raise as afterall i am due a review which coinsides with a store audit I will see positive mention on…hopefully lol 😀
I don’t know about my social attempts but at least i have a few outlets or outtings and that’s nice  there is the hope i’m not reset in a sense to zero but set for success.
I have options to continue again to seek a higher education.
I’m NOT out of luck on house or gal even if for the moment curse cuss paitence lol 😀  and actual lasting effort put in too.  might help.
and obviously something for lunch coming soon to a lunch bag nearer ME.

eyes open

some things are given out as needfuls of our days.  I got to stock an empty freezer, our head, the vent for gas main tanks dewatering.  (I’d rather do the freezer)

it’s been inordinately bright the last couple of days, I  wonder why.

biofreeze cream

  • Active Ingredient: Menthol 3.5%
  • Inactive Ingredients: Camphor (for scent), carbomer, FD&C blue #1, FD&C yellow #5, Glycerine, Herbal Extract (ILEX Paraguariensis), Isopropyl Alcohol, Methylparaben, Propylene Glycol, Silicon Dioxide, Triethanolamine, Water.

roughly 12 buck walmart these days, just heard of it.  I chuckle a little bit as I remember the nest listing

tei fu oil


Safflower oil, menthol, wintergreen oil, camphor and other essential oils.

(this one’s MINTIER!)

roughly 11 nature sunshine.

(I’d like to thank my pal from xangaland days for mentioning something that works for her with her needs.  the tei fu was recommend to my mom as an aid for relieving migraines it sorta works…anyone with migranes will surely tell you they hurt and hardly anything even helps, i was glad then this did a tiny bit.  for my pal this is muscle  relief after physical therapy if. I read her correctly.  I am glad.  it’s nice to have a natural arsenal.

11 Surprising Benefits of Camphor Essential Oil. The health benefits of camphor essential oil include it properties as a stimulant, antispasmodic, antiseptic, decongestant, anesthetic, sedative and nervous pacifier, antineuralgic, anti-inflammatory, disinfectant, and insecticide substance.


in case you look up what things are said to be useful for.  this is an example of them in products.

I have the gnarly peaches i got pieced so they may marinate in wine, onion (and song) gingerale and habeneros.  the kebabs are pineapple  and peaches  obviously pineapple awaits decimation! ….just saying the word makes me feel like murdering metallica with a rewrite of food instead of grimness (blackened, off and justice for all) not tonight/morning but soon. 🙂 wonder how the onions ‘ll do as caramelized? I didn’t prepared the as kebab-able.

in other news

the sabra red pepper hummus with multigrain tortilla chips were darn tasty.


(yes, my tastes change as I eat differently, I never used to like flaxseed much, it’s dealable now, and this hummus is NOT http://www.westword.com/restaurants/100-favorite-dishes-hummus-from-shish-kabob-grill-5765725 but it will suffice.

dreamed of ill perspective places supposedly grandma’s company I shant see to which I was suddenly a foot shorter than.  and aspirin flavored gum that didn’t work…thank goodness, I don’t like that ringing in my ears! (yes, I know what too much aspirin will do)

today I threw a dart at the world and it stuck in bethleham new hampshire.  odd but pretty.  the anti hay fever capitol 😉

Haiga & Holy Mole!

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(ultimately from, https://www.pinterest.com/explore/lotus-flower-art/)

nine noon three plus halfs

tupward to heaven pointing

lotus French Toast Feast


To the Tune, Bee Gees’  “Stayin’ Alive”

Boiled or Fried?

Well just chop it on up and toss it in this here wok
Chicken ‘s in demand; bok choy to chop
Fry oil hot or steamed warm – which delish – I’m so torn
I don’t want alright nor disappointment’s OKAY
We’ll just see if i should have went the other way
Whether it’s dumpling or eggs rolls, man
You can’t argue China’s so so ON.

You know its better than any other – dial that phone, call your lover
and choose, boiled or fried, broiled or fried
Or is it Yan Can Cook thus so can you –
so choose boiled or fried
You-want. want. want-it. Boiled or fried, Boiled or fried
Chomp. comp. chomp. chomp. Boiled or fried


For a point of note, The person this was written to smile reading would most likely smile in general saying, “Both.”  😉

(I didn’t try to complete the lyric set, so yes, this is a fragment. and the lyric model is a google search beegees stayin alive lyric.  Martin Yan PBS tv chef. “Yan Can Cook”)

Day Dreaming

I more than likely will have filed a bid for a place I’d like by this time tomorrow evening.  I am dog watching FREEEEEE! as a bird and the dreams are simple joys specific folk and times.  I cant find what i want in the way of a linear representation of a rose I seem to see in my mind – but, I knew if I stared after it long enough, something…. would arise.  Here is a few pictures and links to bid your time til I’m less busy.

French Toast.  it’s not particularly uncommon nor outlandishly expensive which is nice when it’s not wishful thinking to want but to want realistically is a trick 🙂  so.  as i already can make french toast but lok to improve presentation of everything…. why not a flower motif?

In Buddhist symbolism the lotus is symbolic of purity of the body, speech, and mind as while rooted in the mud, its flowers blossom on long stalks as if floating above the muddy waters of attachment and desire. It is also symbolic of detachment as drops of water easily slide off its petals.

Now, it’s of little concern if you want number two or number three it’s a simple cookie cutter die, and voila flick of the wrist to arrange this.  that is from left to right, top to bottom… 12,34… if you see this as a pattern to make.  it’s very much required this be white as western civilization demands any mention purity be powdered sugar or in my case an appropriate substitute of sugar substitutes.

I live in Georgia now so it shouldn’t be beyond me to procure or make ug peach syrup. whizzle/whirl some peach to puree and sugar/water syrups stuff if care is taken not to BURNIT.  some thickener is likely required pectin or cornstarch etc.

now I was thinking with this FINE start to the day, chicken sausage?  hey! I can’t have everything anymore! while I can easily fry a boatload of bacon up, that wouldn’t smack of healthy nor could I enjoy it.  so sadly it’s to alternatives land for the joy left of what i CAN have which is chicken sausage.  now i wish the particular apple cinnamon sausage i got was better as in spiced more but, I would try it again.  and anyone who knows flowers expects a stalk in there 😉 sausage link for the stem lines please. a big old dollop of whipped honey butter as you must religiously butter people up even if symbolically that’s such a farse! read the symbology and see what i’m not getting 😉  but laugh if you will as it’s just fun.I’m fairly sure i can add something else for stretching this if’n I need to. but a plate of french toast with sausages sounds nice enough

the simple syrup idea isn’t just from knowing what it’s supposed to maybe be but from a different moment food and company wherein baklava or baklava in this case is meant to illustrate that the traditional offering in American experiences is a pistachio one…it not so.  here’s one in floral water syrup orange adorning a walnut mixture.  I was actually thinking decadent glazed popcorn but baklava is the way that way so…. here’s a link.  i do read this is a recipe not mine.


the backlava with itself is durn tasty surely and wouldn’t do badly with chicken pitas.  yes, again i have dietary restrictions so while i am entirely free, why would i wish to overly promote what i cant partake of?  but popcorn?  mmmm yummy glazed popcorn with a bit of a baklava crunch to it?  weird but enjoyable sounding?  considering that and a cozy movie… which i’m ignoring mine.  Madadayo, an Akira Kurosawa film.


I’m out for the wantfuls and some rest up early with the dogs time enough to finish documenting for the later portion of the evening.

if I’m lucky, I will be in due diligence next week and mid month signing into a place of my own.

for the sake of having to describe the french toast idea to a long ago ex who’s both diabetic and blind.  I note that the shape of the lotus petals is somewhat similar to that of a tear drop and if you have that point at the top of the drop you may aim it around the clockface as in the point of one at nine am/pm the other at 3 pm/am choosing the stacked approach you would have first the nine am and then the 3pm point then a roughly ten thirty and one thirty points layer and finally the noooner – or – if you choose the fan approach, starting either at 3pm in sequencial points one thirty noon ten thirty and lastly none or the opposite way around so it’s either leftist or rightist as you prefer your symbols within symbols ;).  also while french toast is simply an egg bath for bread then fried, it’s very important one understand bread and eggs and frying etc to obtain a tasty breakfast! so if one imagines this typically you’d end of with half slices of texas toast thick bread as the tear drop shap removes roughly half the material of the slice… this in egg bath is maybe 2 or 3 eggs typically a splash of milk or water milk has calories, and perhaps some cinnamon  which is fried oh say in butter…more calories and topped with powdered sugar to it’s a beautiful white more calories and the deadly kind too….with fatty sausage…calories calories calories… oi easilya seven 800 calories meal which well it’s a trip to fat gut land and kill yourself quick for many with the diabetes.  or you can utilize thinner slices multigrain bread and utilizing sugar substitute keep this around but under 400 calories which is still decadendt but survivable.  but just so you are aware I got a kick out of whoops, what reference would she have? lol.  always be careful to remember what is destiny epiphany to you might leave others in the cold.  hard lesson to remember when lol I think on “people” hoping.  and yes, it’s very much possible for me to fancy this up in reality in some form. I just wish it to be a calorically appropriate one.
awoke 2:30 for emergency dog  doo dooing and bath.  no, there isn’t an element of excitement to my day!  uploaded the cadre of documentation showing I meet just BARELY the minimums set for me and have a mild bit of room to hear yes no or maybes ifs.  I would expect within this list i will have to provide a resend or so    — i have a case of procrastination otherwise on cleaning and collecting my own stuffs but ug i must move it or I’ll be annoyed.  yes, I can sense the day already is long. it technically hasn’t “begun” even…but it has.

Attention DETAIL!

(Title is a Quote from “Gettysburg” Turner Home Entertainment -upon delivering the prisioners to the next regiment.)

I went and visited my main townhome choices with sis and her hubs.  and a new place entirely – Drive BY style… of a proper house altogether with yard.

rather a fun outting even if i didn’t win on the scratch tickets gotten…visiting a wine /brew store for house other guy’s supplies and a new fruity something wine for batch 3.  bottles  and what not. tried getting next month’s bill set sarted and they’re of course closed til monday lol.  had breakfast at the awful waffle…waffle house and… acidic belly leaving and not overly enthusedhowever it was not the usual breakfast as i got a side salad and a set of hashbrowns smothered/grilled onions, peppered/jalepeno included, an capped mushrooms in.  or, actually an entire vegetarian affair oddly.

I may alter house hunting to go saturday after the paycheck arrives as i plan to make an offer really.  it’d take a miracle not to want to.

my choices are:

as better yardy as virginia street’s condo is, its less inviting entirely and perhaps mostly due to combined utilities which if so is a huge b.s. snarl to resolve also having thump thump top neighbors and the actual area itself gave the feel to others of less inviting if not outright sketch.

the  then option is 1319 hilton which would mean #8 never really mind #3 it’s nice  but the bank of sunlighted windows is a better offer than being off street.  it is closer also to all ammenities like stores safe enough to get to and shops like a sushi place and a couple of fast food offerings.  it is a place of going places yet enough can be done to also have a few over.


house is more yard keeping and further away with being semi quiet nice but the close convenience is is the sketch so more of a day place.  drawbacks obvious of more care but advantage of it leaving room to simple have a creative ball.  there is tacit chainlink meaning i could negotiate the wait for better but also can deal in the mean time.  -while it’s further it offers a better roommate offer closer to the school than the other places.  still leaving a spare room.

principal consideration is ability to plant a garden versus joking babylon of hanging potts.  trees can nice it up. I like a texas scarlet – quince and a loquat along with an almond tree or three all offering red burst and or pink bloom.   and of cour the difference also is 30% less for the home versus town home which may make all the diference fiscally.

I enjoyed thuroughly my cherry sprite zero mmmm.

is there better? sure, but i’m pleased with what i saw.  it’s enough to have a choice, it’s tacitly acceptable to the people i know.  it’s 20 minutes from the gate if anyone changes their mind and wishes to save money living here/there.

Going Bananas

Stumptown roasters rwandan hue whole bean?  orangeish still but I’m going bananas!  both perhaps literally and metaphorically.  McCormick baking aisle extracts banana and rum 7 banana and 2 rum enough cream tomake two overly creamed coffees shaken in a ziplock container with truvia touch of brown sugar artificial sweetener granuals.  i mean that is the literal outcome of a enough for five cups it’s afternoon  and i ground it to turkish coffee dust and brewed it anyway ala automatic coffee machine.  but, never fear, i am likely just as much as better than maybe crazy too. 😀 yes, pastic smile of an infinite smirk.  I think i’m somehow winning but at what reality isn’t yet showing up with 😀  this niggling detail of reality is as much as nonsense!  fooey.  I’m having a grand time and a good coffee.  have to leave into that reality though for work…in about an hour. no, not boo! i can pretend over coffee ecstacy i’m still here listening to I’m atop all the universe non sanity am.

I reconnect with 21 years last seen. no not for romance, that past but everything charming did not.  I research a townhome in town surprisingly to me i can afford – furnishing it remains a niggler.  I have sandwich stuff if i get off here to make a lunch saving money obviously called for if aboving. I wonder without proof if i can’t honestly call a few dream. just in case you’d like to know the actual contributings positive.  perplexing ones can be skipped as they’re already mentioned.  i’m told i sound just like myself but i haven’t called this way in nearly a decade.   I do recall consciously choosing down that way too many timnes/ ways.  but here i am again!  reset, or broke the rest of the way…. or both.  we shall see.  i’m not really a harm to myself but i might be unsettling a time about others, i haven’t been here in a while.