its 4:54 am.  I begin writing a blog and search tapestry twirlers colors words weaving into my morning.  Chevrolet offers big truck engines at 454 cubic engine inches.  As with arguable facts, Chevy is blue collar king of the road of the small timers.  I’ve completed my dishes about house.  I’ve earl grey going tepid which had no room for cream as I greeeeeedily hit the ten oz fills thus left no room if I wanted to brew my tea.  I’m out to sign an ‘ipe’ for state services/aid as I got to bed at a reasonable nine 30pm to awake just before four am the just enough to get by rest.  I dream of doughnuts.  No no not Barbara eden in ‘I dream of Jeannie’ 60’s sitcom tv. Although I’d cuss if I got honey do!’d to redecorate the living room to be a genie bottle!  (Not likely but it was a plywood trick set you climbed into… I don’t wanna pour myself into a living room! Oh yes I do soup of the da!  Whiskey with frozen water croutons. Heheheh… do you ever feel a bit part of an earlier social construct?  Doughnuts tea or coffee the working man’s tools… knowing that a doughnut breakfast could mean steaks by coal red light for dinner?  A couple of arm chair anchors both furniture and the furniture in the furniture….  baked potato and a lil onioned green beans?  Vaporous as it is vacuous chatter prayers amended by apple pie?… mainly to mean ones expected to have the diabetic catnap by the tv like the naptime in kindergarten once forelling of life.  It’s okay to dream of doughnuts although I’m a bad American for drinking tea not the holy righteous coffee.  I guess I need to believe… but that belief is a tummy ache mixing tea and coffee!)


This is a very old movie that isn’t likely copyrighted so that it’s non centered as to beat copy algorithm?  Heheheh. You will see the Clark gable which eating a carrot is cartooned? Into bugs bunny later.  And get a lesson in doughnuts:)

this is apropos of a golden time right  40 before I got here. Even if doughnuts and Chevy is still here and my morning con-patriotic tea


Ghostly piano in the lobby…

smiling inspite of cynicism at the gift shop /sucker spot.  It might bring a smile and those are good.

92 pounds or wow that was! Heavy.  245 lbs potatoes the person… yet both got to their spots safely as I am useful at 147 lbs.


i wonder tween a cold cuts cruising for an Italian type of sandwich/sub or is I’m in therapeutic need of a chili dog.

im not really surprised today went this way.  I am a tad lazy about my supper I should get after.


This indicates a fairly well contained and maintained rig and conditions saying even still there’s so seriously tricky bits of lacking certainty in life and that is metaphorical.  Go get your vomit bags.

This is an application of using liquid air.  There is a large variation of performance within how the end result is produced.  And yet much control is exercised in precisely offering the uncertain later range of performance.

i was curious about the liquid nitrogen cartridges for some newer generation aerosol cans as CFC are hideous to our ozone and yet we can not live with conveniences.  I was curious because the more you meter a specific amount the more predicted work can come of it.  Engines run upon the expansion of heat be that liquid air coming to safely contained pressures to spin an engine or gas burning to produce hot air vroom vroom!  Nitrogen can expand 696 times ish thus a very small variation of quantity can double unsafely it’s containment and yet down to the sized puff of air, using only so much to achieve the work means less time refilling.  But I return to the problem not of possibilities but control


nitrogen in water bottles topped up removes water and gives us that safe shooshed sound of sealed food and beverages.  Yes liquid nitrogen just a droplet and it’s capped safely pushing out oxygen or spoilage and we’ve comforting life.  But


as you’ll read and or notice?  There’s no accurate control.  Just flows not a more tangible touch.


lately ive ran upon the fuels intuition to be alive and some of the worsts for me are certain sadnesses yet why they’re sad I can not quite handle/measure.   What’s making this not just a fart sound of airvescaping a balloon ewwwww metaphorically is an odd notion that this both must be shhh don’t i worry yet do assert to be growing my own sense of respect! – but don’t worry.  Joy is present so too soo a lesson in patient power.


So no- there is little certainty to measuring accurately the atmosphere to sterile utilize heat.   There is uncertainty.  It means there will be costs inherent.

fishey business risk


i never suspected mom to have seen anything efforts of mine in and then hope I push that tiny bit more in the face of fairly certain ruin.


i snapped a picture of a menu so I could enlarge it enough to read it and order somewhere I never alter otherwise the order.  Curiously I saw on change back the awesome lack of cash handling safety of amount visible.


i took the rapid transit – a different new route and its the poorest neighborhood rout ever wow.  And despite cutting out a lot of stops and coming every fifteen minutes twice as fast as any other bus route it was the slower connection by a mile and most I’ll timed to miss ever route I needed.


it occurs to me just as a whisper how amusing it is to face little fears as seeming wins often ignore larger losses hidden within them.  Just as complete massive failures can turn silvered afterall


its still amusing out there.


I have 11 days for folk to contact me on scheduling what amounts to a GED test?  I graduated high school and have a decent ACT score atop which have college credit with a c average within that times studies…. but I apparently need a GED?  11 days to have this signed by them .  This test isn’t used for the school I wish to attend either.  It’s thus red tape to shuffle me out of their hair.

Why? This agency is how you get job tools.  This agency being governmental also is your watchdog of rights.  So to be shuffled means I have no help towards tools or info helpful.  I can go this entirely unsupported.

The worry was there wasn’t enough time?  Um I filed for on september’s Third week for roughly six months prior to classes beginning which is march’s 3rd week.


Needless to say: there’s a closing coming as I gain no aid here and must proceed elsewhere.  This will be a delay.  Atop this I will need to move to keep boosting my future financially which destroys this attempt schooling as I must transfer addresses ruining my residency status so I get my medication access.    It’s a year to another chance to save the cash for tool stuff because obviously I need look to myself.  Hahaha so much for that first grand idea forward!  Hahahahaha. Never underestimate red tape


now from a practical point of view— the agency is USA states level division of vocational rehabilitation.—- you need the following things :

proof of eligibility

yes you can use the service no matter who you are!  But I warn that your priority is legally low if you’ve no disability or military service.  This reason is to be arrested by a competent liscensed professional.  If you’re blind eye doctors certifying this for instance.  If you have health challenges  doctors specific written diagnosis of this.  I warn you that doctors charge for this cash money not covered by insurance!  So if you require aid getting even this much you will go to their experts or pay for your own.    Next: if you have any disability in learning you must bring that in certified by liscensed professionals  this is curious in that I have an entire schooling from preschool through high school graduation in special needs programs meaning I saw add/adhd said of me often! But guess what?? No one certified this as a diagnosis ever.  So to compound my issues I have maybes out there and lazy people not willing to chase anything but certainties.     Then of course funding!  This isn’t free money so if you want help show assets and full financial vetting to see how you get and how much.  Atop this it is imperative that you can identify the tools you specifically need and where to procure them and what costs.  This also means services too.  You’d now have to choke that with this effort, what good are these agencies if this is my work and what real help are they?  Don’t go having a bad attitude now!  They are trained experts! 😉

this lesson in frustrating services is a reality of disability.  Not always do people want to help or occasionally there is a possibility that they can not help.  Keeping your chin up watching delays and treatment come is difficult— yet consider why people go to where there is help by reputation!!  Because this is also a reality that. Months go by.  Months and you’ll wake to nothing is done.


this is the level of support sometimes out there.  Being offended  is a great way to be asked to leave as they don’t need your grief.

The amusing thing here is my intended school offers tabe testing Friday all day test which is available minus any accommodation as I must have services to gain that ;). And that would cover their proof of requirements for service minus my later health issues just blindness as it there upon proof of ssdi received case  blah blah blind.  Haha easy stuff ;). That would leave me to write how I need the counseling by them   Lotsa counseling (budgeted need of their pay) and then if she wishes it ammended she doesn’t have to sign and time runs out.  Yes that’s if you see me force my will. Past such jerks ;). Basically they don’t have to help and that’s the bottom line.  There is enough excuses to cover ones behind. (Save job).


This is tax money by the way.  Cushiony government work.


Once I hammered the beat

two timing words

three would mean they added

fourrrrrrrrrrr! (Be forewarned!)

poppy’s red

tonight is continuing the heck that is jangled  thoughts.  Jack Kerouac left my town as he left the mortal coil 10/21/1969 St. Petersburg gl.   I am about to mossy but not so fatally.  7/4 is an odd signature in music when most of it is 4/4 popular. I am odd.  I came here to live deliberately and it seems I’m about to mosey as I feel I either get busy with why it ain’t yet and enjoy making whatever “ it” is.


I understand dead poets society”’s cave sce better as it directly imitated this.

One two Three four Five six seven

! . ! . ! . .

its nighttime