Inconvenient Insomnia

I can not sleep. It’s 3 am soon 4,5 etc. I will be up to change my addresses via mainly phone work with appropriate agencies… It’s vital I exist where i live legally or dialysis is on my dime not the insurances. It’s just as obvious I can’t sleep because I’m scared of success. To combat this, I’ve wasted the most appallingly boring hours trying my damnedest to not save the world but take achievable steps towards my goals. I would say dreams but if one puts dates to dreams they become goals. Scary thought hoping how some school project at 44 years old yes school project shows my diligence and intelligence enough to be courting money successfully… But I don’t want it it to appear I’m haughty… I want innovative modern but thus tried tools I’m both able to deploy on scales thus costs acceptable …but I don’t want my yesterday’s of nothing but minimum wage and stagnant opportunity… I want more.

I choke on a simple list of alphabetical a to z a few times streets being a nothing project yet it was suddenly a major intellectual blockage.. so I took my years on years learning neat weird things online and found a -z lists and began associating what sounded weird but campy real for a free-wheeling once mining maybe town… My other blog lists that as “working around the blocks”. And then previously on almond offers, I having mid project suddenly have to move out of state as my housing evaporated, wanted to demonstrate nothing is gonna break my stride….a fine 80’s tune by Mathew Wilder who later brought us the production of Christine agulara as reflections the main theme of Disney’s “Mulan” which I find amusing as Mathew Wilder in “nothing is gonna break my stride” mentioned in lyric “sailed off to China in a little rowboat to find ya” and this means In “Mulan” Wilder is a popular musical contributor to that movie. And so just as much of my life is within Colorado you’ll see that I hope I represent beginnings common to towns and later development…or failures.
But most of all I want my fake town to feel real… I’m silly that way. I only expect to create a town large enough to have a city public transit offering robust enough to require schedules. I want a feeling of plausible growth. I’m finally beginning that reality.

Here is that town model

What this is for is that schedule which with signs at each stop labeling stops accurately as they’re individually also labeled, I can duplicate in my schooling the final project of a real time text query system to tell you in the fictional town of “Double-cross” when your speeding bus is coming.

I’m not sure any of this helps my goal of making more money. I want to be making more money. I’m trying not to let anything stop me from completing my goals… Even if I’m self-paced and now self monitored from my helpful lighthouse for the blind of Pinellas county Florida… Beginnings. I now am elsewhere but don’t you dare say I can’t.

Projects they help me establish
Typing speed and accuracy
Excel as well as the Microsoft office suite
Adaptive software to both read the screen and or enlarge it so I may as a legally blind person reenter work
Sql instruction
Css instruction
All of these make my project above possible in real ways. I have struggled to get these opportunities going only to start dialysis then have my housing change not just to another county but now across the country. I am not rich thus no longer own adaptive computers…
This problem is partially settleable by two or three places I know of

Littletons public library because I’ve used it, has a seperated blind adapted computer room.
Or did.
Colorado talking book library, a state Depot of getting my entertaining books to me the blind and or physically handicapped.
I may also find luck with computing borrowing or resources through
The national federation of the blind I Littleton.

It isn’t enough I use pen and paper or bulldoze my way to completing this task absent of adaptive computing underlying each and every skill… What would be the point to show you something already implemented I many large bussystems including the area i live now and where I moved from? I mean hahaha. Who’d care? But if I fundemetally understand the concepts of this project and demonstrate testable skills sets, and the competently with the help of adaptive equipment… Hopefully you might agree I may improve my luck finding opportunity.

I’m doing this with the help begun of
Florida states
Division of vocational rehabilitation
Division of blind services
Lighthouse for the blind parent organization of American council of the blind… I believe
Transferring to
Colorado institutions

It took me a year to date to get this far with the enormous amount of paperwork and seemingly frustrating delays. I may be nine more months starting all over in Colorado paperwork!!!

All I can hope you see is determination to have me my chances again. I’m not kidding, I used to be able to see just enough to manage differently… I otherwise can no longer read all registers books computer screens from any distance complex signs like your number in line… So I either learn a new way or I never work again.

I may be technically disabled even sickly… But I’d rather not wish this to deny me my dreams… And we all know most of us gotta work for our dreams. But I’ve help…no guarantee just I have help…. This is some proof of what I’m doing with it.


The Adventure Is Here.


The broccoli tree. Look it even believes in Halloween with it’s lil skellie smile.

Day one was some green chili I could manage at the mild Mexican joint ! Yes just in case all the Colorado left me, mild. Walking the manager or of dogs was quite fun as we could take 4 of the 5. Don’t you worry special time for jealous growly was arranged! Of course the gotta go can’t happen til the neighbor could see you seperated from the group no bag as we’d stash common the bags I the stroller… Extra patrol! Sushi mat it for suppertime and it requires a lil tweek to be correct to type of ingredients but mmmmm. And a lil progress upon the goals… Next photos…

(When trying to invent a fictional town, big enough to support multi-lines bus service, hence many stops to text at stops or Rob call info, you if me might get roadblocked not just inventing a list of street names…. But imagining how the town had to come to be! I don’t lack a model – best for this sized town for shape might be steamboat springs, co as it has a three line bus shuttle to get you to your tourism joy and if that involves alcohol- a free ride for everyone’s safety and if necessary the very little mercy bad choices otherwise will net one. As you can see the ideas, gelling, this town has to have a minor bit of railroad access and a river to a lil lake. How ideas of generations change with how we try economically for livings… It’s not just paths but the ghosts! The ghosts make the paths. But that’s the block… That how big a lake which is why the town gets shaped some as it is an expensive thing dams so what was it’s need to fund it….I’m settling upon flood control with Earl city power and thus minor irrigation which makes this a fairly late Victorian era beginning of a tow├▒. Not so new it has no ghosts… But not so old those ghosts actually overly excited anyone.

My delay start for dialysis is waiting from Thursday til Tuesday and it came through as I was boarding the plane. So I’ve a lil ID running to do so I’m not courting surprise out of insurance area bills. But I can progress to what adventure is back here. But the adventure is no longer Florida but Colorado…monkey wrench of housing occured…


On the bus, gus

An adventure awaits. Frontier airlines from Tampa (FL) to Denver (co) awaits midday for my caboose. Final moments were two offers elsewhere. No word on the switching care or flu shots as they started giving them out. I’m mostly packed but back to track import stuff as it’s last chance if if it’s coming. 720 out the door on sunrise.

Reschedule appointments primary care and vascular surgeon…. Out of town. Cancel other Florida.


This is a victrola (rca record player) which apologies the record sounds through a horn.
The next picture is a 1930’s am radio which will conveniently also have a horn speaker too.
Now understand, this is a revisitation of an idea where the point is paired products in this case the speakers that can drive their their functions…… I e a victrola would play records!!! A ND as the radio plays radio yeah yeah… But as they’re a pair, they can be the rear channels of surround sound.

Just as this old fashioned or vintage movie projector is sized so in a custom way it could hold a modern lcd/led multi media projector thus would be the visual entertainment……0.0..5.644.7118.2j26j5j5-4……0….1…….19..30i10j41j0j0i30.M60UMJU6cwU&ei=EcR-XZ7GHJKkzQLG5b7QBQ&bih=592&biw=360&client=ms-android-verizon&prmd=sivn#imgrc=mfiGdEZ1JuV-HM
A keystone vintage projector
It is of keystone camera company of Boston not keystone pictures a newyork company early in Los Angeles movie production…
An rca led projector capable of 150 inch display and 1080 resolution… For the purposes of form, I’m not spending hours on whether it’s fast enough at full resolution to play modern videogames versus movies or television just as I’m not going to spend hours making a parts list of a project I can not begin this instant. I’m just covering possible.
Given that I’m determined in general, I’ve little doubt I’ll have chances to pursue this…. So I will quickly finish the front end of a surround system.

Klisch heresy 3 floor speakers which are good sounding speakers for highly snooty jazz or classical music
Maple tree audio design, a Canadian real tube/valve amplifier capable of driving even klisch speakers which are surprisingly low wattage speakers. This at a price I about to consider without mythic funding.
Yes even a screen with curtains…
It’s not “cheap” nor is it an impossibility.

The reason is simple. I don’t watch much television nor do I wish never to host a game or kick back for a flick. As I’m far deaffer than I used to be, I would appreciate a system clear enough to hear yet not having to feel it loud at my room air-conditioner is a power saver!!

Next up is kitchenry. I’m not forgetting to set not dreams but dates I can achieve one way or another. Or “goals”

Nothing has to be, but I mosey forward…might as well flesh out how and with things I want style-wise.



Passegrille beach just below the island

Via ‘s central avenue trolly CAT from downtown St Petersburg FL. 2.25 each way. Sat sun and holiday but warning, there’s no real inter towns transit on weekends so you’ll cab a lot of not driving yourself or if vacationing this is a m-f thing. for 100x (3 each way discount possible but will cost a 6 dollar card requiring website proofs listed. Is Tampa’s intertown express connect on four or nine routes psta from cat psta to/from gateway mall 100x to Britton plaza or Marion street transit center (Hart bus terminal)

That’s the gigs. 8th Ave and along beach passegrille and doctor Martin Luther King Blvd on Central avenue. And the paradise grill stop along beach.

Keystone motel passegrill is that place with the pool….
Just katty corner from hurricane seafood restaurant which is that sign to whichever deck, the cat stop also 9rh/gulf way.
Various identifiers maybe ;).



For when you’re too hungry to wait. Tostadas.

As you’ll see or soon will win luck, this is Rachel Ray worthy fast food -tacobell employees being able to assemble 4-5 times as many in my geologic slowness. This still took under 15 minutes from cupboard/fridge to photography a few bites in.

Tostadas via American grocery:
Old el paso brand red enchilada sauce 1 teaspoon per tostada ish 5g ish)
(Old el paso brand extends across Australia so one can gain burrito shells taco shell etc and additionally refried beans courtesy of online shopping from Cole’s Australia or was it Woolworths?…one of those)
Rosarita brand traditional refried beans 2 oz per shell spread approximately evenly to the edgesor 55g (pureed cooked pinto beans)
(On sale 10 for 10 dollars 1@ 16oz cans)
1/4 head of iceberg lettuce sliced/shaved nearly
Cheese (grated sargento brand sharp cheddar)
Grape tomatoes sliced (1 per tostada)
Sour cream (1/2 table spoon or less 10g ish
Tostada shells were Guerrero brand I think.
3.49 TS, 2.29 SC, 1.99 iceberg lettuce, 2 for $6 grape tomato packages, 1 rosarita beans, 1.79 red sauce cheese is 3.89 ish per package or 8oz not on sale that can be 5 meals at 2-3 perperson lighter medium lunch type eating. Or 17.56/5 $2 a meal ish