(rude) Happiness

Joy ‘s nethers smile

Happiness is holding your ass.

Fulfillment a stain.

Splish splash I was taking a bath along about a Saturday night…. Gutter gutter


Not not knocking

I like where I’m from and it’s minutie of possibility.  I’m happy with old fashioned non authentic food like taco Bell as I am mnmmmn ing on some street taco action.  I’m a shitty foody as I’m just as much of a snob yet pretend to be open minded.  But let’s cover cheap versus expensive regular versus authentic.

The anatomy of a taco:

If you hit fast food this is seasoned filling in a crunchy shell of fried corn with garnish ala America lettuce cheese and sometime more.



A deltaco picture illustrating some taco and other offers but a restaurant view.


I find del taco very cumin heavy in seasoned beef taste and their sauces not on par with the bell.  In fairness I grew up with only taco Bell. My

Taco Bell offerings


Copycat recipe to achieve typical.

Please note how it’s always some persons family recipe that is borrowed. My husband’s family. Hmph.  But what works is taco. And this is USA fast food.


Street taco

And with comparison explaination…

Mexican Tacos vs. Tex-Mex Tacos: Do You Know the Differences?


And something totally not authentic



Authentic is racist and crap.  If I sell vastly over flavored Chinese to earn a living, what is unauthentic about this? I want to live.  If regular American tacos of our Tex Mex tradition didn’t get food into our overalcoholed systems then we’d be sicker longer.  Less happy and many out of work as God help us how good warm food sounds at 1 am after a six-pack too many.  It’s crap people dog inexpensive as it can’t authentically fill you and must poor people gmo poison!! Because it’s not by God my half mutt street corner vendor who knows authentic so much so he or she isn’t and maybe weekended with someone in Mexico in ditching school.  If it sells it’s authentic and it might even be good if it resells.


That ranted I can hypocritically admit I sure do like adobada tacos.


Mmm as I’m not allowed pork in my diet due not to religion but health and my  inability to clear the digestion of pork.  I have kidney issues.  I really don’t like smelling an imaginary pool when that’s me not clearing my food.  This doesn’t interfere with my love but it sure cuts down on my yesses to love.


Well, taco lovers, tell me your taco tales.






Today was lighthouse for the blind Pinellas (county in Florida). I was in for a vocational evaluation.


I got one hour sleep for the dance party well past 4 am which a noisy computer user.   I type 29 wpm with 90 percent accuracy which will improve with sleep.  I can get places and both groom and feed myself but lack in my opinion a better method to transit yet oddly know nothing of extra help very very much out there.  I’m comfy with computers … I’m not used to any adaptive programs really so I will have time to be as to read I need it magnified over 800 percent.

I got to my bus stop a seeming waltz across a high one of13 lanes.   I chose lunch which got me to the stop literally to wait the whole hour half hour it rained with a pretty point of the sun coming out at the end.

Contrary to my hope of instant job…I get training as to prepare for sucess…. Literally I asked.  This is to hopefully get what I reallllllly want which is into insurance underwriting as it seems to pay okay offering stable work from home eventually work.


It so sucked the 7 block wall to the place from bus points.  The after completion same took one hour as I needed to nap to make it.  Or I really am not in hot health folks. This is Aenemia from kidney issues with some heart trouble.  So imagine my joy! When be they’ll get me to and from home to lighthouse training made me feel!!! Yay.


They have community liaisons building opportunity to this bunch so when that time draws close I have a shot at real jobs not some list on the internet.  Or I may be less than willing to identify blind as to stigma but I’m pleased that I can offer a good a ccount of myself towards my hopes.

This is acb big down here.  Not nfb.  I utilize Florida divisions rehab and blind services, to pay this forward forward.  It has been since 9/26/18 I’ve been in processes to get this far.  But I can stay a little longer hoping in Florida building or continuing after a life.


Thanks and or wish me luck.



The 80s dance party still thumps and wails.  My important meeting forward is 9 leave out before seven am.  Luckily, I caught two naps.

But why I’m here is the calling.  Ever notice if you wish upon a better future you’re really saying poo on this present?  Is it possible to break that belief in all my heart I care but no thanks nevermind?  Of course I can feel and retell myself anything… But  plop I end up back where I began?…  Or is it I negotiate wrong and refuse in core values to alter a deal breaker for the other?  Oh but attraction that lasts is that but a choice to have nursed fantasy.?  Have I just warbled out of tune?

I’ve paid out surely.  I’ve called but I guess I’ve the response.  Gotta bridge that gap Sonny.  Learn it before despair.  Be the cliche.  Yay.