Letting go of expectation constant score keeping ahhh what a damn pain! It doesn’t go to Hoyle and? ;). Here I am happy hopeful anyways! Fuck it! Ain’t got anything more interesting than living up a little life.
I have a half hour ‘til getting into folding the laundry. I know you’re excited to hear that.
The coffee was extra good. (Hugh Jackman laughing man hugh’s Blend not on sale thus fresh not stale k-cup)
I am weird. I do like burgers both homespun and fast foods offers to high chintz/bling ones too. I don’t have a good rapport with cook to order ‘fast’ food burgers. Okay sin of sins I think five guys burgers is a reason for vegetarianism.
Never once of thrice visitingng is there redemption always overpriced slow and who do I have to bribe to ketchup atop my burger? First bite is always dough be that burger or bun. I admit bread/butter pickles are for others and dill is for burgers and five guys uses whack pickles. I guess it’s celebrating whatever I don’t like about burger and taking away redemptive milkshake action so I notice each heinous sin!
Some say they’re juicier – five guys ( never frozen meat not over cooked…)
And of course they corporately pay correctly the help better but at bankruptcy per burger excuse me if I’m less than impressed.
And I bet you too can put your finger on a lemon of your choices souring your desire to return? Good because chick fil a is next enduring 28 years now of being ignored excepting thanks for employing family. Waffle fries suck that bad.!.
I guess fundamental issues are the feeling of value. I never question Denny’s pricing yet if one thought on it why wouldn’t they compete given that they sell food respectability for a family etc. but walk into a place and feel it’s expensive and not a value? Which is five guys or since I said it chick-fill-a. Yikes.
Now take that snobbery and lets test it!
Jimmy johns gourmet sandwiches – yay or nay? I like their tuna add bacon before the bread change of 2015. I paid money to eat their despite wishing ire on the ass who put up a free smells neon never cheap ghose signs. But subway long ago threw away taste and value so it’s up to who’s left. If I get a subwayits out of sheer desperation as I like meatball sammiches and Philadelphia Pennsylvania despite reputation for good served me nothing good. But jommy johns overpriced but they’re fast good and such! Wow to their internal standards they train people to meet and insist continually on!
But I admit all this is diatribe and subjective. If you find joy in food anywhere bless you and your belly
YouTube abuse!
I bloody well see the imagined oscilloscope depiction of a piano chord backwards. I see this because I can hold pitch but I sure can hear as I might better say feel sound. I learned twenty years after sacking violin playing that I don’t actually hear perfect pitch oh split ends on my gorgeous blond hair the doom! I hear just a few hertz sharp of true. I learned this tuning a zither as it annoys me when it’s wrongly tuned… turns out I’m wrong… oh split ends of fashion disaster! I can’t sing so naturally many a job was? Lead the sing along! Swell. I cook but even I know I’m so slow at it that boogers there goes the easy Rembrandt award as it’s just Jackson pollock behind the airplane… up in the air it goes so as to become… in reality this is alllllll true and as I likely fixate and or loop as in I like songs and play them as if I ingest them… only to tire of some and wonder why that song is hip and the other square… I never did think to live this ingested song as part of my day I mean whoopee crap I lost hours and hearing grooving! Others tell me of the adventure that is that time as I seriously see only a time in a chair! Time doesn’t exist if the music is right. But I remember that oscilloscope in his apartment as he was my piano teacher but did voice and fenced… a personification of a New York City character – I tell you true I never once saw it this oscilloscope on and thus it’s amazing I know somehow the signals paths illuminated.
I can’t tell you how often lately sshhhhhh! 3 Times. That I dream I am awake and it is later than it in reality is. Disconcerting this! I must also deliberately sense that I hold the world nay universe steady to blaze my comets trail across my heavens. I must always be careful not to fight these last instants too or I’d ruin it all. Yet if my heart truly on my sleeve signals rightly – gah! Am I so close to tired as I’m just not 4 10 etc ages young like that as often just a wee bit tired of the effort splat into glad to to be of service while we await the thanks but nahs oh but blastoff is neigh! To the world I share ahhhh and oh that together simply excited the orange juice is orange! Blood orange haha only if you’ve enough purple carrot for color! Wanna ‘jack’ (freeze concentrate not steal) our next glass? I know that means I must care back….. ah the lengthy wait to be believed.
It’s Saturday now and I left the business week ago and Christmas is a delicious time to be looking into a moment of other’s time. I wonder if I get to laugh at how foul my timing really is.
But here it is my big adventure forward starting it with a cold if I can cough up sympathy. I saw the icy hints lines water resides here…but how deep and which… splash! edge? What the bleep is that portapotty in bloom smell? The water is grey or something?? Now it’s stinky marijuana oh joyful vomit. Miasma Yet I’m supposed to dhow what’s to be seen and yep… I can’t quite always tell
And while home is no longer a dormitory and a revolving carousel of characters, it’s the ech of liking out a windshield and seeing reflections behind. Hopefully the stroll between attractions amusing involves stomping mustard packets for distance.
The web says my dream if not to a time I had plans then I might see time hath run thin 😉
i know I despair on occasion crosseyed in deer headlight fears
but
its possible a little more each day and thought to accept yesterday’s dang it need not be today’s forever forward ruination.
i don’t have to mention water vapor is about 1/7th that of liquid so it occupies more space clouds and the smallest fluffers thousand of feet away is about ton on ton of weight! But I did and do. Water weighs what it does
you plus sixteen see nine? Is a Unicode symbol for the elk or aljiz rune in Norse divination.
it means safety
protected from the worst
in learned reflection I’m shown the awesomeness of the universe should I play – in reality I must accept I am not making it into everyone’s book of fabled heros.
I’m shown love is that heady motion of trust it’s us against all I’m the knight of old! But yet the reality is that I’m not to pedestal a queen but listen to a human being and thus care. Not white knight saving the day.
its of course rather frustrating to know one must find their way and be company perhaps for another on theirs — yet balance the adventure in love forward…. and as seems cussedly ever the reflecting obvious that it’s nothing perhaps at all wrong with my or anyone’s offer yet it’s a choice for alllllll those marbles. Something as simple as walking yet making sure it’s with the other not a useless block ahead – or a widely nurtured and secure home built together in finances not magically a phone call away paid in full.
its fun wondering how to be a part of yet not unduly responsible for others lives excepting concepts like protected citizen ties like elders infirm or children cute as they’re last night new to the big world.
Its fun with some growth to fully feel the world alive- to not just sneak a bedpost notch but to actually be entrusted to care. To plan that ahead ridingmout consequences 😉
its also fun to understand in patience that others arent born yesterday or incapable either thus champion not just my ideas!
Obviously now to more joy!
joy is needed too!
its a joy to think blueberry ketchup??? You heard! Why? Because it’s important one know that ketchup wasn’t tomato based always!
its fun to know I may each little step of the way see joy in the world. To feel the blood of strength course through in hope forward. Not fear entirely anything yet to be well aware within fear it’s no guarantee
joy is a book
a movie shared
adventure in security not that calamity is not existing- but that it is dealable
https://almondcoffeed.wordpress.com/2018/03/31/progressing/
Yes I did it! But now the again!
The lentils?
oi talk about simple gone toss in a kitchen sink! Recipe
1 lbs lentils (454g)
1 lbs carrots
1 super mega large yellow onion
a double tub of white mushrooms (1/2pound likely)
1 5oz jar tiger sauce (atamarind with chili pepper sauce)
1makes 48 oz orange juice concentrate can
1/8 c soy sauce
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i had no room for the lentils so had to stock the liquid then toss the used bits to have room for the lentil! Eek!
anyways
corn tortillas
one can green chili enchilada sauce
2 8oz bags jalapeño jack & cheddar cheese mix
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1 24 oz tub sour cream
1 package Lipton onion/mushroom soup secrets(vegetarian as in no animal in this)
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i chose not to roll the enchiladas as I’m lazy sue me- but not from previous try and that I can’t see that it’s not helpful in later presentation nor speed.
so I layered tortillas like lasagna and layered tortillas lentils cheese the boiled mushrooms tortillas lentils cheese tortillas green sauce and later more cheese. This helped gently keep it all together 350f 1:10 minutes or 70 minutes
it took 12-5 to produce the lentils
lentils in at 1:30
that year ‘fore my eyes
grabbing at straw illusions
acceptance realized
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i just watched an animation on a torque converter a part critical to automatics I believe but yada, I had always thought they worked the opposite mechanical way of converting torque to speed rather than speed to torque.
I enjoyed an extra history on youtube of mary seacole- a Jamaican whom offered aid and comfort to soldiers in the Crimean war but unlike the mainstream prized folk, did so at her cost and resources and largely unsupported. It should not even for a second skip notice why- black of heritage (mixed heritage) and a woman? Ooo start tossing up social roadblocks! What was curious was that while celebrated rightfully by those who cared even as she faced bankruptcy to toss out a collection, she was forgotten instantly in areas of legacies as no one championed on in her steps or kept alive her memory even.
The other extra history was on Julie d’aubney of Louis 14ths era covering a way politics works this firebrand was bisexual openly in life. Open. Think now. That’s not a story of known different. This is open in an era where the concept was burned at the stake religious suppression! And no not her fate although robbing her girlfriend from the convent was a great way to earn the ire of that areas law.
As you can see, it’s misce souls and or etc notions mine. True value is? And support is for why? It’s just a reminder to be clears great things come either supported or not. It’s largely unfair why. Why do I focus that mention? Because. It’s worth knowing not that it could happen but has already.
Doble was steam now schoelle double to The Who who’s then and cyclone engines trying to bring alive the burn anything multi fuel advantages of that long ago! Steam curiously doesn’t need transmissions. And steam steamy if you catch the names and such above? Well
keep it hot…
I failed utterly to do anything but ride around a bit before boogieing back to a mall.
however.
The above is north coast beer’s cranberry quince Berliner Weisse. I had to have a second. I got a vegetarian slice of pizza (margarita) and it sure was tasty. Even for Whole Foods.
bulk nation for candy and cookery things
such brightened my people’s at the hostel
i thoroughly enjoyed visiting my friend.
it was 4 hours there and 3.5 home. Via impossibly always altering directions. Busses overlap ya see.
Upon oyster planet
Surveying scenes – futures lithe
Good morning, seen it
Help is kitchen done
Grumble thank you to bathrooms
Tball three whee fun
Two haiku I know bless the sneezy one but it’s worth remembering I’m tired and have an order thus others help is often a fuck over twice and I’m to be gracious as I am pleased with gratitude that my day is improved as that so often this help is helping not me but another and wow thanks I just set that in soap rinsed to clean right after a lil soak and clink clink well I’m tired here why not to a few flights of stairs with you yaaaaaay! But stop a moment and realize attitude is displaying grace ringing true as I meant thank you as any help is a spirit whether the outcome is all that grand or not – championing spirit is a smile
Or just as I get excited to find what I’ve heard is desired the response seems as if I’m tearing away to a better place without the joy when the person shared with us the reason for the joy not the shared shitty ideas!! I’ll invent ideas that may not come to sunshine but I sure am after joy to share :).
Or such is an example
Of how obstinate an ass I am. Most help is not help… because it is hard to let go of the order in how I work and I’m tired plotting each tasks effort outlay like a marathon not to sprint and fail dying into a task list to hard hit. Heh. Or you not a world are my oyster as I share the smiles brimming over if I can.
Fancy how that works out for me 😉
Back to work – 44 diabetic unemployed so I heard via a
Meeting where this isn’t a career or even a job yet hahaha oooh! And I’m thank full of it for my life… actually I am. Despite the cynicism
first, not what you think, it’s just the dread phrasing to make etc clear. I have my first appointment with vocational rehabilitation and my counselor vs intern. This ends an era in time from many states here. It’s a Friday 14th heh, way to work me in before holidays! Yay actually.
Lunch was made- Indian and good.
It was no where near the recipe I had nor material. But it was good and disposed of. I burnt the crap out of the coating to a thin pot so as to make sure chicken got cooked. In a yogurt , this is a gauruntee tour tween steps of hot water boiling off the char — so on uses the pot again! It lacked a pungent sweet note as I lacked cardomum or even fennel! But I don’t much mind that I ate was nice.
i suppose if I listen and believe you me! The wasted war zone of unearthly silence first is disconcerting! But if I listen I hear a sound not necessarily magic but dreams coming truer. But lord help me if it seems some of the hardest things is patience
