There is a fine xtian tune “on my knees” by Jacee Velasquez
The is also pigheadedness
Oddly just as my mind considers how to allow you lot to follow along, or why candy is so much wax, I also take this moment not to seize all I hope after ( chasing it away paradoxically) but ask myself if I’m allowed me? I’ve surely earned me. Why not a dash of selfish? And then I must breath and realize the opposite is also valid what about the other coin side?