Once I stayed In a building originally meant for railroad retirees. This kindly Latina captivated me with the sharing. But had this odd request if as to how she’d share- you’d learn like her over a phone trying in progress to get it together. I didn’t call and she from emphysema and age is long gone… but in a memory- on the blower to heaven, here in the lentejas taking form fifteen later.

Orange juice 32oz
Soy but not more than a 1/4c
Onion (one medium yellow)
Carrot (454g/one pound)
Garlic (3 big cloves peeled and sliced)
Cumin (whole seed) 1/2 teaspoon
Bay (ground) 1 tablespoon
Butter 1 stick in total
Baby bella mushrooms (4oz package 125g)
90oz water (tween o j and water roughly 1 gallon or 4 liters)
Mesquite liquid smoke 2 tablespoons
Tiger sauce whole 5 oz bottle)

Corn enchilada tortillas 20pack
Red enchilada sauce 20oz or big old El Paso

As I plan on disposing of new all liquid and veggies boil for 3 hours ish dead, save a few , there is a quicker drain and pick out non lentil bits dice save veg for contrast make rice and thus tween rice and lentils in corn – dinner

Editing in more
375f (220c approx) foil half then burnt a bitty bit no foil coming plus dishes….

As you see, the pan bottom has enough liquid to mash the lentil to a paste then that is cooked to a dry paste thennrice half bag with butter and then half remaining lentils in or — I bollocks up the portion points— half the required corn tortillas only a single layer 13×9 pan worth I had enough filling for 2x 13/9’s double or at least fat 1.5’d!!! With a quarter cup more rice! (Half bag uncooked)

Benjamin who likes keratin is one of the workaway staff and yet again is principally the cook so the good folded enchilada is his fault! 😉


Duh yes, I am not a slouch! But I need help to achieve half my dreams and I’m gifted with interest – thanks!

Palmer also here contributes soy, grams itself the butter, Benjamin the foil atop his skills. Or again, this isn’t me yet at heart I suppose I am in here somewhere… no my Latina lady above? No I don’t remember her name it’s gone to time…

But if you’re watching down, maam… thanks
Christian did the dishes.
I don’t think I ever had a better vegetarian dish … Christian…
Which is a butter /dairy (d) dish by near east abrahamic dietary laws

Minor adjustments of cost preserved have this at add 5 doubles recipe thus feeding 6 now at 4 per being 2 then if that. Either price point is valid but one lol make money the other costs too much!

Ie a mexi type combo can be 9-11 a 3 item combo dinner this 3-4.4 in unit items cost x 3 allowing food service profit

Okay it serves 8 at 2 each


Make you something vegetarian sometime carnivores!


Fuller circle

I am down the road. There was a nice card and quite a ham party kindly thrown up. Yay. It was amusing finding out the manageress of the last place is a shop-a-holic ! As a ‘five minutes’ required 45 and good Sandles shopping was involved! Nordstrom rack by total wine. Yes haha folks I got the wine first! Thennnnn the chance to whinnnnnne!
I gained wine, a box noir, (bota box nighthawk blend) and chattered on the gals side of court here at the hostel. (Grams place hostel – tampa Florida – now on the historic tour this year of homes/buildings!) I’m labeled in permanent marker which will be a pain to remove. I can’t read it. (Duh – it’s a school teach from Illinois and yes the revolting humor was how awful it appears to be numbered in seeming tattoo but some of us don’t remember door codes… but write on me I write on you! Only fair.) I’m thinking lentils. The hardship is with tamarind! So I hope and you do too that the honkey store carries Tiger sauce as they’re unlikely nor anyone close to have pulparindo. I’m thus back fuller circle to how I came into this area.

It’s odd why this is but five percent and charger is packed a tad well…

It’s nineteen now and I doubt I have a legit explaination – but once said it is a truth so whether or not it’s remains the ire fire it began as, I guess it just is meant to be said /done which can be good! I am forced to see some things in a cloud of the interplay not just facts. Or rather odd the truth is odder than fiction rich in frictions of what’s important and may linger – if I remained or even ever was at fault I’d be curious but something tells me I’m not the only one with a sense of held emotion. It reminds me of a line…
“We should have freed the slaves and then fired on fort sumpter- better to lose the wAr than admit to the mistake…
General Longstreet to the colonel of the cold stream guards of England…

I wonder in a way if such is true for me if finally I’m not blamelesss of course not! 😉 but just this once I begin to have a chance to understand more of what ordinarily would be a complete fail might be more of a light opportunity to not stagnate or in other ways to truly finally communicate in full on truth – every hackle up. Let’s hope I’m not buried alive in these things!

Oddly enough, it’s allll deadly real despite sometimes the feeling it may be dreamy or as one can imagine in an instant – nightmarish- some of the news. But here I am…

Down my little road. Fuller circle –

Or if you waited for the stupid stmbolism smear- if there is new circles beginning inside the ones radiating out? Or oddly if all were to implode into later memories echo? You know it’d be very odd that! For it to go as if suddenly all 2.5 years having left out from being demoted back to assistant of activities from department head, sick, sans insurance hardly a hope and wanting more! To travel half a country fight to enjoy anything at all other than disappointments to have said close like that ??? Such if you understand even a little bit is the choices none I control but influence of my part within. Do I believe on Monday all the spiritual für Vers of sunday? Here I am trying- I hope it’s seen I care or I believemuch matters even beyond just my hopes… but again… hmn. Fuller circle.

( why lentils?)

Follow link No I’m not Jewish… however there something to be said of:
Being fully aware the outcome isn’t more than one of choice. I’ve asked to be more than an unbelievable vision… I may or may not be.
Follow the changes or third tab grey of the ‘hex’.

I suppose this means I’m going to require pants here shortly… to my Win(n Dixie)!

To effing bury you: har har a joke
Plant symbolism’s to play a part in meaning!
(Mesquite ash vs. hickory ie liquid smoke)
(Bad thing/link but whatever)

Plant Symbolism – A Guide To The Spiritual Meaning Of Plants

(Corn – enchilada shells which cover yet more circle symbol meaning! First a disc the a cylinder!!!!!)
(Cayenne as part of tiger sauce- vinegar, pepper, and tamarind)…0….196.1428.0j9…………….0j0i71j35i39j0i22i30j0i20i263j33i160.oprvxrEcc6E%3D
(Lentils again)
(Fried deviled eggs – best bites video via Facebook)



I went shopping. I got every correct (or not) selection basketed. However, I didn’t execute all of this nor am I the principle cook.

Beef bourguignon
Green bean with potato
Simple salad

‘Roast’ is:
Celery (one pound/454g) trimmed
Carrots broken (8 oz/227g)
2 4oz packages fresh shiitake mushrooms (227g)
1.5L table burgundy wine (minus 8 oz. and you know why/who then that bottle of it as water
3 Tblspns (grape seed) oil
1/2 stick butter
3/4 lbs pack beef back ribs
2.5 lbs eye round beef roast
1/2 Head fresh garlic add in stages
1 large yellow onion
1/4 cup silver swan soy sauce

Brown off meat in oil, adjust heat down add garlic/onion then toss in veg all in stages add meat and liquid boil remove ribs bake them off separately as snack

Add butter to broth/pot liquor to make quick save for meat
– takes til tender (3.5 hours)

Heirloom tomatoes and good olives help make a nice salad

Gb’s plus potatoes yum



This is ‘a’ building in Tampa fl on my merry travels
This picture/link is of the governs center Columbus ga.

I’m reminded of Ivan the terrible asking if one of his architects could after delivering a design into reality repeat it… yes was a bad answer.
( – in case you think I’m inventive … )
Hint: the above is a sarcastic smile

Speaking of terrible/ formidable food now, and the Russian comedy it can . be on digestion… loose meat sandwiches

As you may remember – it’s northern in modern cultural American cuisines from Minnesota through New York and probably a little better known of as a ‘coney’. Oh hush, I didn’t say an authentic ‘coney’!
(A Coney Island Menü picked at random doc Coney Island in this case left column is coney and under itloose burger

Roseanne: tv sitcom
The Langford lunchbox
Via thirdanddeleware.tumbler

Of course while I’m of Detroit – and summered there sometimes ages ago- otherwise living much of my life in Colorado I have a memory of
D-town’s Lafayette Coney Island

Now another view!
I can’t see to edit from my phone or TVs/computer get ups so I printed it again – the book idea of last October… we’ll see or you will…

I lately see a altered state of luck so let’s see if I smile through bring another round of it 😁
Or it’s ews instead of views!

(No official change yet on maybe moving but some noise it might not have to be)



Happy drink too much day. (Blasted Irish pal neglected to cook me that rashers and cabbage for the authentic – miss ya.)


Hashed – corned beef – or otherwise (nsfw)

Tie it us together!

(I’m making sure an older nhk/ cctv documentary of the Silk Road is playable for movie night Saturday which will scrap as I’ve dinner plans and a lil birthday cheer before)

This makes a hash! If going out to view the drunken revelers Friday!

This means if I corn beef dinner it’s Friday or Sunday- I also have little hope in this town for a Murphy’s stoutAnd my favorite for corned beef odoulles Amber… yes you read this heresy! I list a non bleeding alcoholic beer (if you can still call it that!) and not the universal drink Dublin up Guinness !
Murphy’s stout courtesy of Wikipedia
odoul’s amber courtesy of homebrewtalk

Firstly: it’s not heresy even if you don’t know – Murphy’s rocks and isn’t motor oil sludge! Yummy.
If you cook with a beer your big company beers de alcohol ice theirs more gently than you might around the house! But the point isn’t this it’s costs and non alcoholic beer is cheaper… this one toasty toasty which blends with coriander well and tamed the too much cabbage or potato fight.

Now hash hash (frenchy on hash remixed)

I like his do up on the cannoli more and no I don’t enjoy consuming marijuana

Oh you meant corned beef hash!

I suppose though I saw these looking around and I’ve made
Many a traditional corned beef roast dinner along with cheese sauce more than a couple of times….. potato soup too….

Corned beef poutine
Revelandroux – Irish Canadian fnachos!

Versus dog food which lets us face it corned beef hash looks like most of the time!

Poutine is a dish originating from the Canadian province of Quebec consisting of French fries and cheese curds topped with a brown gravy. Wikipedia

Okay then beer gravy…

I think crisp fries okay easy enough
Cheese I sure did like that smoked provolone!

We might have something….

Anyways, suchis my hash of thoughts…
I seriously do enjoy production but not marijuana – buty that bag if you want



I needed out. So I started rollin. If you’ve guessed sushi, good audience!


Now why I’m nuts this is worth notice! Because! Mustard! Hunh??
(Unlike chili peppers/capsicums… wasabi and mustard are similar (horseradish too just like prime rib night)

This would have fit better as a unified theme if I’d gone chicken teriyaki roll not tempura shrimp but shhhhh.!.

But…. roll your eyes….
We’ll just roll with it


🎶 Do you see what I see? 🎵

Okay, xmas season song lyrics can get me shot so far into Winter- come onnnn Spring! But you’ve had the opportunity to view my home and months returning to cooking versus not doing as much. Due to seeing what I’ve done,( or a chance at said) let’s get inspired again!

Be it moonrise
Scotch over sunset,
Museum lines
Lakes (puddles)

Inspiration and tummy’s feed me! Feed me expectations can mean food!

Red Mesa Cantina for chili rellenos beans and rice it’s the highest rated Mexican in town but as you’ll see not thee only player!
A flyer for how to fatty boy (or girl) it up at a three course mezcal dinner.
Mahon cheese because i’ve Wanted to try it since I got a cheese book in 2002! A poki bowl or topped rice at the ramen bar – I got the ramen but I took mine home and it didn’t survive to be photographed 😁. Menus… and guess what? Here comes another batch!

Okay okay I cheat I put in pan seared pork chops in a chambord reduction (something I made at uncles home) a merry walk to a salad over water? Okay that got fancy and yes I salad for breakfast sometimes!

But such is that fun isn’t it memories and more to be made! I mean I’m likely to be hungry TODAY! (Heh)


Fads-your-diets! (Fabulous!)

This is my notes. Notes! Yes! I actually don’t have all the answers!

I am just going to warn you the following is Long! It will contain incomplete data and other remembered factors which just as likely as they could be true are? Also just as likely ‘red herrings.’

A red herring is something that misleads or distracts from a relevant or important issue. It may be either a logical fallacy or a literary device that leads readers or audiences towards a false conclusion. Wikipedia

Additionally, it is somewhat impossible to be private and yet ask a specific questions – rhetorical or otherwise- so you’re going have to accept ‘TMI’ too much Information.

Now I investigate a ketogenic diet after having read on aarp it could reverse kidney failure.

This may have been that article:

You will have to note that I’m a diagnosed (2004) type 2 diabetic with stage 4 renal failure fluctuating in the 20’s of kidney function with a fairly stable if higher a1c of not quite mid 7’s with two alterations of normals:
In 2011 I got? Perfect if not low cholesterol after running 315-375 numbers forever only after quitting as I ran out every medication save allopurinol which is for gout – and in 12/2016-6/2017 I went from 17% renal function to 27% with two stable rising duplicated numbers across six months checks yet now these numbers flag – resulting mostly from altering diet eliminating in large part pork and highly limiting beef intake eating mainly a high fat gas station diet.

Now obviously as a ‘poopy’ meds taker and a high awareness OF nutrition, not necessarily following it, I investigate trying in a way to duplicate some previous good.


7 Low Carb Noodle Substitutes

Alright. I don’t know about these dubious things save I know I’ve had the zucchini and yellow neck as veggie string noodles. (Sis). No not a huge fan simply based on taste.
I’ve had the miracle noodle but not it’s fish complaint… just a general complaint
And I disdain spaghetti squash.

So being a butt about about compromise and not helping forward the chance to make it / them better! I get a big wanh wanh wanh fail! There.

Because I know everything! … not…. info

Nori as noodle substitute search resulted in
Is it Japanese Lasagna or Italian Sushi?


Cucumber Pasta with Avocado Sauce & Nori

Which requires

And I remind, I didn’t get a homerun experience it wasn’t my experiment and I admit some buttish refusal to play along as it felt forced on me mean like loving a cat- fuck that!- Was the feeling 😉

However you know I’d like to try your approach I would like to have friendly interest so, slowly I get off the arse to try to see why my experience… did the duck (toilet duck… swirls hands all silly)

Other alternative for light! Carb

Because my brother made a crispy kale lasagna?

(1/3 carb minus the dietary fiber pull off of 37g pasta not including its dietary fiber removal)
( I knew I remember seeing it somewhere else !! 😉 Metamucil. – psyllium husk – part of ingredient list for kale wrap)

Why the wraps?
Soy was what I was after oo just look at carb count!

Ezekiel bread “facts”

Ezekiel bread nutrition
Holy shit! That nutritively a whallop,473390/
Comparing the above
Comparing the below

Which if comparing pasta carb to the substitutes now rye bread you’ll see why I get fickle about some dads as what’s the scientific point of outright tossing bread some things are good!

Before you buy that smug smile read carefully that I thought x was nutritively dense and realism I put that Easter egg of humility in there on purpose…

The point is French toast or gluten light or carb light depending on mood within this above I’m rebellious yet trying to get excited and truly connect not just frump like life isn’t as planned.

Obviously I have issues but I do wish that Keto reclocks or restarts/returns some kidney regerative ease anyways and of course a fundamentally sustainable lifestyle if I’m to bother at all

Best kidney fat searches

How to Render Tallow

The best?
Remember in about third grade I’m moved down in birth order place and thoroughly friendless at school I largely quit outside – I didn’t gain a stable “best friend” til late third grade fourth ish and was chunky monkey forever onward til Diabetes nixed that ! Thus I look to be careful with information and facts yet admit likely sources too… grandfather left of kidney failure and emphysema yet while all blame smoking, it’s ridiculous as he worked a glass factory and that’s not without nasty fumes…0….276.2603.0j8j6…………….0i22i30j0i131i20i264.lPx8HYmkZmg%3D

Because it links higher incidences of true risks but which? Well I don’t need kidney stones and I see! Heh I would court them now the point

The point

Not the original article but similar point

Now the better definition

My brain is semi fried so the remaining q of which fats remains unexplored for now as does how to balance this against incurring damage/stones or heart failure/ plaques me dead plugged up arteries

Remember- low glycemic impact too.


Here’s the traps involved, I didn’t then Not nie eat pasta pizza etc every meal but I also don’t have a journal to demonstrate a diet niw nor over time so basing choices is far more of a guessing game!

Anyways my notes

Now I do like fried zucchini utterly defeating carb control. I also love cheeseSa


Praying for reality?

Out cheating kisses
Smiling like the world’s mine
About ‘me?’ moments

To heal or drive the world my way for a plucking out of its abundance, I’ve?

Simply to not ‘win’ but celebrate joy

Winning denotes and conjure the fear of losing just as it lifts the eyes in luck’s surprises in instanstant completion in contentment, it’s chasing rushing winds of of old blue northern roped instead enjoy the breezes god given

A ‘blue norther’is A weather front that often reoccurs…

Dopamine chasing is a lottery win after s lifetime of losing you’re last hope and dollar so many times!

Seratonin might be a coffee enjoyed of enough change scrounged up spur of the moment! Yayyyy cofffee!

Oxytocin might be in negative attention seeking behavior try to insult versus compliment for a raised eyebrow and playful smack… or outright a good whallop because know you’re there it lingers.

Positive esque behavior oxytocin seeking might be a hug and bright smile of delight suggesting something just right for dinner/lunch and then a walk.

Many things combine to increase these states by habit. What works courts more. Fail enough trying after these and there still is power but it’s a way blocked by not achieving it.

Pavlov-Ian behavior modification!

See and achieve – it’s sorta that easy to imagine it then live it real. This concept is bolstered by losing the fear to fail because it is okay!

It right now is entirely okay I want a cozy place I built/or own yet can not just yet achieve as that’s a big project! Believe you me it is!

But why not enjoy making my bed all cozy with fresh bedding and my rent paid with that freedom I actually have to enjoy the world my oyster! ? I can gently choose each choice towards that higher a carefully plotted variety of choices altered to aid the longer term goal?

I want to hold you my love which is cheap cliche but the reality is?

I actually do dream of the smiles warmth of your standing by me knowing there is no looking at a clock for cinderella’s Carriage to poof back into a pumpkin again come midnight. To know you are where you’re comfortable being looking right back at me. To know I have that strength to exercise forward. Yet there need not be but a whim to waste that feeling of real power which is jussssst fine! To not a moment need a single word – you write that meaning onto my heart unspoken.

Curiously you actually already do that.

Some of my dream comes true every breath.

Healing from a lifetime low or woe- riddle hells is not each breath easy but they come easier. Knowing it’s many steps maybe some stumbles? Why not? It’s funny to see the someone else losing a footing whoops acrash bang boom!
I came into a place I could afford and the hope to almost instantly begin towards each dream ready to work it! And oh boy banana peel that so worked out! Not!! Yet progress. 🙂

I can make my bed and now cook more freely! I didn’t have to do it allllll. Yayyyy!

Maybe I’m cross-eyed for Jesus
That I’m more grate within hopeful knowing I’m delusional in my hopes…