If ever it isn’t obvious and believe you me! It isn’t. Projection reveals some of the deeest we are.
The only thing we have to fear is fear itself!- fdr; brilliance but Bubkiss. I can both win and lose thus there is fear and it’s real? Nah I can care and survive humbly no matter what win or lose happy or sad that while weak is strong.
I fear as I revel in it… financial insecurity within lack of my belief in my value of success and worth. Shhh this isn’t necessarily bad but it can get unpleasant.
I fear this growing up a snob. I was separate in the jehovah witnesses by not celebrating holidays as a rule eschewing bad things . Obviously if you read word one of me you’ll see I wish to be good and know I am but not always I’m easily a kleptomaniac liar mean as a snake hateful fearful knowing money is a careful image to cultivate no it’s no sin to have confidence and cash but also one can paradoxically be rich while outwardly poor. Either way it’s to be valued and gee duh haha guess who doesn’t thus wholly believe in me save with bandage spirituality that I am sex grease! Success value and yada bravado and atop this a heart of an ic to give the last drops pumped of me trying. Trying pushes it away. So much for me being positive!! 😉
Now watch- I went up and down in life like we all do. Bet you didn’t think it’d be a smell my memory moving from a standard house to a mobile home but urethan smells like urine its namesake and thus my memory going lower is piss figures I add kidney failure a fatal lack of pissing 🙂 to compensate which is lack of acceptance anger in ancient eastern symbolic medicine. I caught myself calling poor white trash and trailer trash and remember the smell but why? I see no likely way any offer of mine is likely a better solution to provide the requirements of space desired versus required and affordable with the usual hint of a lifelong belief I only win if I can support it all and succeed so in a way that flatters. I don’t believe often I’ll be helped and am evil incarnate obstinate about help because I WILL.
Laugh a little as you tour a lifetime of subtle truth hidden in times. It’s okay to show pride putting best forward wherever happy. You can have near nothing and show pride a mile long and confidence better than any king. I have never once seen anyone do it wholly alone singly sure but most often hide to the world the help they have and credit all day on what’s achieved. Stupid as I am I still sit on means enough to space of my own our own if so lucky where yes in no time flat if and trust me this isn’t easy – get me p/t work and I bet my other doesn’t long have to food fun and life await exploration blah puke my visions often are shit on for not being imaginative. I’m really this boring. You’ll have to just deal.
Now in there do you see trust issues projection ? All over the map! Some of the nastiest any of us are is when we fight what we fear we are. If I a snob is poor I’m? Minus easier financial options duh! If pride is taken I’m kosher my whole life whatever the circumstances and now….
I can’t see which lies to tell. You knew I’d mention actual visual challenge ! I have one and it hinders me from the truth in manipulating body language to get positive or negative results thus enough of expectations and how to meet them to play life’s repeating games
But at heart I can care also survive and provide in that I’m far into cheap avenues to enjoy luxury on budget I have. Not we I don’t trust a soul to contribute just window dress my life very well I work as allowedon this. I know I’m not alone but tell that to my heart I fear too.but isn’t it probably frightening how powerful projection is at reveal others I used to think a commanding word thump whatever that’s it! Solved. No it’s usually negative and projection. Bummer my world ends as I see newer ways to be hahahaha. I know shouting isn’t command except on screen if to be heard at all. Quiet too carries weight.
Also gee duh I’m new to trust in love a rollercoaster of feelings but you mean something and it’s Fire passion a dream. Now trust iron of my soul I am so new you could fart and scare me away! Ug I hate new. It of course cherished as infancy is hahsha im opposite the world greaaaaat. But if I’m right I can admit I’m not the best but I do know when I operate from passion /feeling and learning to balance this enough to not burn the other down is nice but passion moves and to simply quell truth defeats the point. But to move in the physical expression of all I am requiresme to live and thus wrong often here I am
Hurtful yep here I am but it’s surprising as I’m usually nice. Trusting myself to my fears revealed ? Dumb but required always have lost in life here at this point trusting I am valuable when I too have weakness. I get that wrong!!!
Well anyways win or lose oh yeah I’m after someone. I learn this. I expect in truth to not gain her trust wholly because somehow I can’t earn this?
Okay so maybe I’m also full of shut too
I engender trust in powerful ways in an instant.
I mean here only to say I wish to see my fears vanquished so of this is you some me butt ultimately to not hide. Meaning oh gee great I’m likely to hide my whole life balance Starman! ;). Yes affairs instead of open value. Yes poor when rich counts. Oppose when harmony is there
These are me I wish they weren’t they aren’t well liked attributes! But 😉
Such is me
I project like others I read a bunch. Try to cook. Enjoy it most when I present uncaring of looks the best tastes ever.
I know I can lose. Probably feel I deserve too as well but
I can win and I do need help to do it. I resist such meaning I’m crabby at this 😉
I need you for a dream simply find the bloody dream heheh I know this mean I finally say my truth meaning I now lose but heh
Oddly I don’t for a change I bet you agree.