bogeymen and scenes
haunt like memories unmade
video training day
above is two cards i HELPED make. I ran the art days and the poetry day and held a chat with one with a story to tell. I am responsible for the story as presented as a poem as i don’t know shorthand notation so I had to compress this story as told into a poem . i had it’s author edit this to her satisfaction. thus, i knew about what directions to expect/explore. 😉 but again, this isn’t MINE. save the idea to combine. – dana foulks my then neighbor did the actual graphic design work to make this pretty and get it printed – which was such a neat thing to share, an actual card. obviously I can not do this well here so you get the pdf chance to view. it.
the current creative cards are adult coloring post cards which remind me i so had to work at enthusiasm 😉 I am just NOT rembrant.
other progress is i wish to diet this season so as to see just maybe if i can’t isolate some troublesome food and or absorbtion issues to whoop so Diabetes away from so much of festering and or pestering ME! this is a goal/attempt. this is not garunteed. I expect to “clense.” as i can not alternately feed intake nutrition, I have to hope gentle works as i can’t skip the entire system. I hope to rice reset/calories then yogurt for conjuring a different arrangement of flora…. if only slightly. the slowly swap a few shots/days at different foods to test whether they bother me directly with minimal other influences. after some notes on outcome I hope to combine far more vegetarian only options not because i’m a veg-freak, no. but, i hope to still honor that i have some dietary restrictions to honour and still achieve nutrition. I suspect chicken is not digesting pleasantly for me being in public. I suspect i’v ehad an on and off slight gastro intestinal bleed as i now all too well that ‘odor” and if attached around discomfort, this could go a seriously long way in explaining why i have such murderious difficult with sugar control numbers, i have 1/3 of normal numbers vitamin d…a factor directly in sugar uptake/insulin working.
all of my plans can change poof as i have a completely different set of hopes and goals to compound this or desires that don’t make me focus on this boring diet junk and passing time “creatively” – I do however expect to cleanse if it works I get 2 solid weeks of information and a choice to sugger the ignomy of a trip home with every food I love but a diet to maintain…bugger! however if i see intense results or whispers saying extend the effort, at least til blood work, I have? a realistic shot at ? multiple paths.
this isn’t my day at work but it’s worth returning to work for a moment to mention i still vastly suffer in communication or understanding others lol. I took up all that work to retrain and it turned out not to be the class i needed but ones i retook repassed and are nearly a waste of effort save i remember the lessons better! lol. and no offense i’m serious, if you need something of me and it’s to improve my effectiveness i don’t wish to baulk . i do. I don’t wish to. I’m working on that.
coincidentally, I took emergency fuel response and it wouldn’t load just as we actually had a gas pump hose break at work me at home. no wonder nothing got done today on the punch list of duties to my job person prior. no wonder.
I am behind scedule to my timing but, I sense i’m doing the best i could to let luck find me ready. I had a feeling there was a reason i Georgia’ed which was it was a complete change towards more of what i needed even if it was hardly what i wanted. I felt constrained here or nearly nothing else of a safe secure looking option. I chose. it might have been a huge blessing or? huger still. I can only choose within what i logically have options with so 😀 lol here i am. even if I’m not abraham of the bible. 😉 little further into the stories! 😀
but it is either piddly projects and diet or that and a shift to a different direction. somewhere between the first week and the 3rd I started smoking 23 years ago. i’t time perhaps to change…. yet again. or, maybe not yet, i don’t feel like i have to do anything just should fill my time so as to not float uselessly adrift.
plus it would surely be a blessing to ease diabetes and it’s intended kidney crunch for me which would like be nice to face health restoring some if only to not being a nagger. if you connect smoking and ill health lol you’d be typical about now but shhh, if i don’t feel set up to fail, i might succeed. my house is otherwise non smoking. i have built in support!.
it’s not what i dreamed in life but, there it is, a feeling in the background of excitement. I have a trip coming up I have a job and a shot at no more debt for a small moment lol.. I would be utterly shocked if it really worked out i could be debt free in may or early. but lol glasses and a computer replacement fun and clothes updates would sure notch a dent to that! swiftly lol life isn’t static time is important so is timing and mines actually off, but, 🙂 such is the best i have had going on multiple fronts in quite some time.
i guess it did help to read rising steam again by terry pratchett. lol mine is doing that.