I was curious… am I so vastly different now than when?
http://starmanjones.xanga.com/2011/09/ I cooked more once tonight is a mention that while i didn’t cook, i got to influence what we got making the case between a damned fine carrot habenero sauce and piri piri sauce for the shrimp- the reasons for the piri piri were simple… it’s simpler/less complex with a brighter note that with shrimp and brown rice would help the simple offer stand for comment… it made for comment. it was also good. and while not the hottest of hot food, still didn’t lack for hot lips after…no, not margaret hoolihan!…a condition after hot sauce consumption…. however the link is to a far fancier offering. again thank you mrs. watson, it was a nice memory from xanga times.
https://scontent-ord1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpf1/v/t1.0-9/1521966_10151856523667781_102769366_n.jpg?oh=76140ba96a59c0373c43c5a800fbe8b6&oe=5747A911 = if this fails to display or load heh, I’ll understand but it’s from june of 2002, cheyenne mountain zoo, a planter box of daisy, it was neat as it isolated so neatly. I posted it to picture.com for consideration and it won ‘honorable mention” or award winning note i think… this meant i could pay a fortune for plaques and for drinks while others maybe mentioned me at a fancy outting in some overpriced place… to this day i doubt i’ve considered joining another contest because of that experience
https://scontent-ord1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpt1/v/t1.0-9/11863237_483089195188783_226975144235141558_n.jpg?oh=5eec155299afc00a6c989a563d6c1326&oe=573D23E6 albeit not a camera shot but from a phone camera, i like it more but even i’ll say i’m not in love with the magic the same way so many years later. a picture from yampa valley botanic garden, steamboats springs august of 2015. oddly enough it’s more of a standardly positioned snap, i always otherwise tried for the different angle.
or i’ve spent time in msn groups which later for a short time were elsewhere before facebook swallowed everyone up in the great migration from myspace – which while great for bands as it did music, it was always so so so shallow…. but right after msn’s heyday was xanga which lasted a spell and now wordpress with a facebook presence, but before this while there was an internet to get there still required a service and that meant money and aol offered multiple options not my pocketbook directly to manage getting on and online…via facebook i still keep in touch with some… fifteen or more years later… kinda like the highschool or college friend i probably never will meet. but before this even if i worked for them I wasn’t online between the demise of the bbs for the conglomerated communities of compuserve, prodigy/sear and aol… but listed is what it was like scrolling text which at 3– baud was so slow I could even then read it faster than it came in but not at 1200 baud or more… no chance. I liked little text games like empire which were fun.
was i different though? in 87 on a bbs i was offering out the church i attended like a good lil boy…i very quickly limited that to once a generation if that attendance… however for some odd reason i wont give blood and still prefer not to get any if there’s choices. I wrote as i thought then literally seeing the words or hearing my voice tween the eyes and perhaps this is why I did as well in writing.. such is hard to achieve so i hear. I began to love food more at around 11 ish which shortly within that year was the first time i saw the little and big dippers in the sky… I have seen them since but not regularly since 14. so in that way i haven’t ever seen well….sometimes better than others 😀 but 11 food, why? i’ll admit it’s just exciting but more so as an avenue to court approval which never really has changed in being important… of course i had no idea it was so largely thankless/nearly pointless/hopeless a field of endevour like so many others with the same goal lol. I didn’t create a signature dish of my own for 10 years… just think if i’d have cared for any of the instruments skills for that long how much better i MIGHT have learned to be? and while this sounds dumb, music has a far greater likelihood of providing money /travel/sex than culinary employment..especially up front. but oh well i am not a pro at or with either 😉 Ican also say i think aloud on paper doodling the ideas badly or otherwise and that’s no different now than before.. i still read as well when it suits me and burn through them pages with glee losing sleep…heh. I’m capable and even surprising at some things but large struggle to find that place and this never changed but nor did my luck of having moments and friends all the times required to get by…always an angel 🙂 I can’t say i am any less rebellious but i don’t court the bad to be bad things and have a scrupulous record…now however i’m unlikely any different, just the applications are. – in short does anyone ever really change? I mean become fundamentally different?