please bear what one cam
as one bears thrice what one can’t
life has a pricelist.
heh. I think it’s far to say I’m not retaining the privilage of adult beverages at home. I’m free to make my life my own concern and make sharing mine a joy to hear of butthere is noeasy path tothis happiness. I’m not without luck or hope with the notion of a traded bit of work for dollars but the opening moves really challenge me. I’m reading as i cant seem to spot a computer about as mine’s still not up yet… interestingly enough, much of my reading rings of justice and spirituality.
larry mcmurtry’s roads is the latest favorite spot near my dedicated path through the big town library as it is suspiciously similar to the anniversary refollow of robert persig’s zen and the aret of motorcycle maintainnance by some mark fellow larry M is responsible for Lonesome Dove which many including me only saw as a epic miniseries on tv. I went from duluth to dalas in my time reading what I could later enough of a puff provided me with a little stroll onward down to laredo. the is a beautiful swatj of changing america here.
I finished kitchen confidential by anthony bordain which to me is a precursor to meeting his fame within a cook’s tour. I cant seem to fail to understand that as he puts it, success in a minor measure is lucky too – but there is no slouching to chase this luck and it’s miserably difficult til its a cake walk. he represents what a blessing can be to me. of course I eat up the ideas and likely am too lazy to practice the actual advice of how to improve what I know like he seems to what i aint got. for instance sure i will practice sauce fanciness soon enough but plating will never be a skill of mine nor intricately observable skills…not without the death of authenticity like using tools…no, not an extension like a knife in a hand I mean a safe mandolin…contradiction to anyone who knows what potential woulds these tools conjur or create!I
‘wonder what this next week’s offering of myself are? so do I. I lead out hoping for a touch of respect interest and walked away a director not good enough to dishwash. of course this isn’t true and I have a shot at my luck!! lol but to see what I was praised for unprized is demoralizing to say the least, excust me the rare moments I am inevitably human. I know the thing I dreaded the most moving here the improvement in transportation challenges is more vital here and now than when it occured to me choosing to move, no car, no job. no good at hitchiking as it’s far more fun to honk and whiz past than see the truth i can but barely hold a safe life? no it’s not 6 miles I could walk but 20?plus a nip off the bus rides in big town? that’s my reality as is the real truth if i want a job I’ll likely work only weekends and holidays again with a cab fare part time or is it even worth the effort? likely not but no use crying or crawling back! I came to enjoy the winter.
my first cooking things are a box of macoroni cheese which the prepack sauce refused to spread correctly. my second thing was a roast of pork siliar to the book recipe I wished to explore which is salvagable but I actually can be careful of chinese rice wine… it also isn’t instant yum nor is I I already know I’m not a hoisin sauce fan – so big surprise the roast pork in rice wine and sauced is edible but lol no where near my favorite! the last in lucky threes is brown rice which was rice cookered with about 2 parts water to one of rice…it was crunchy! wee! and salty too. or, laugh a little with me on this battlefield. no one has time for frowns when they can chase smiles. whatever I can not bear today will be paid in interests later…so Hello. how am I? FABULOUS!