particables, dangling

Would you believe it, someone nearly got me to use proper English! Now that is a trick.

The burger throw-down hasn’t happened. the latest is Mac Cheese smack chops/talk. Opening round was a white cheese blend with shells. Threatening is other side’s main cook with many pounds of a fine white cheddar which of course ruins the white cheddar angle for me but not all of my aces πŸ˜€

mac cheese. pastas/macaroni and cheese, both of which have quite the variety of options ala store to get into.

about the neatest thing lately I tasted was baked bean with burnt ends. I liked that a bit different a bit clever.

When the stars make you drool just like a pasta fazool
That’s amore

nope, not mac cheese but I did have a curious moment what the stuff was…of course it’s now something else pasta fagioli … life moves on. πŸ˜€

the other asside was whilst reading mid-summer 2012’s Sunset Magazine with it’s best off grid places to live…surprise, oregon, eashinton, brittish Columbia all in with a smalltown b.c. spot first…yes a skiing village beat out Tropical Island Beaches! but there’s one tea add to remind me that it does infuse well a flavor and for years I’ve had a workable Tea-Smoked Chicken alfredo…alfredo’s can have a LOT of cheese!…and the pasta needn’t be noodles but macaronier noodles….. CHEATER CHEATER Pumkin Eater! there isn’t any of this cheeseburger or chicken cheese or even a ham and smoked gouda CHEAT to be had here… this is Mac Cheese.!

so, I know the following:
mozzerella and it’s older cousin provolone are rather crappy at blending into a sauce… not impossible mind you just not so perfect for this… White Cheddar is taken twice likely. I mean it doesn’t have to be I can whallop with my skillz but this is a throw-down where tastes of the house aren’t all MINE so maybe they actually like it yuckier….worry nail biting…Mahone cheese has a lemony tang to it so I READ but that says I risk all with a cheese I don’t know. plenty of add-ins exist but that’s cheating to me…
mozz/orv – out
white cheddar – dangerous duplicate
smokey yummy but cloying if blending
cheatery with say sun dried tomatoes or ham bacon etc – trying not to
mahon – don’t know it
haveroti / swiss types – not a HUGE swiss fan BUT there is smoked swiss and blending…
gouda – great but is it that winner singular? even smoked…
cheddars – sure but this is where gourmet is a pain in that real cheese as in not processed young cheese just doesn’t melt so hot thus truly requiring a sauce.
pepperjack – again good especially if made quite spicy hot…but is it the winner singular and it is cheaty with the peppers.
marble cheese like colby jack lacks oomph
munster is good like gouda but again all by itself…risk risk risk
goat cheese of course doesn’t really melt
blue cheese and brie in their real forms disgust me…plus brother is anti onions so there went the way brie can be tollerated.
let’s skip the creme fresh or queso whateveros as these lead to the dark side of thinking sweeter things like ricotta or some weird involvement with cottage cheese.

let’s pause for pastas
there are:
wheat duram wheat, multi grain, spinach or other things in etc and a bazillion shaps

we’re skipping the immitation and outright fake-o vegetarian cheeses

I have some righteous smoked all salt…this with a light smoked cheddar could bring it home kinda updated classic.

I can get smoked and dried peppers galore and again cheat cheat it up with add-ins like a smokey jalepeno bacon


well I think minor nap so I sleep the bulk of the day away might help me come up with a plan. I don’t yet have the notion.


post end.

you brobabbly can bet I’ve Stone soup on speedclick too

January is National Soup Month, National Blood donor Month rDNA or recombinant DNA is a term used on medicine bottles to indicate the source of the medicine being blood based genetic factors for producing this or that hormone when inserted into very particular E. Coli bacteria then fed suggar water to brew not booze but medicine – or, if people didn’t give blood we’d have no medicines… and National Glaucoma awareness Month- yes folks Marijuanna can lower interoccular pressure… I still don’t smoke as I don’t like that JAZZ.

I have in mind the most quintessential of the soups in this here town…chili. in one form or another be it the soup or the sauce of your burger or hotdog relleno burrito or mmmm tamalee…etc… You’ve chili memories.

Within Wgat’s The Difference Indian Curry vs. American Chili I have the art which is a few chances to use the fancy sand I was given to make…BEANS. I mean I can make meatballs, eggs and beans out of this stuff as I’m a tad ham-fisted. simple art. this is where we can discuss that dried spices in a sauce over be it meat or meat/beans or just beans all of which are a chili can also be just as eassily an Indian Curry. I like how this stacks up bec ause….
corn beans squash. it’s the “indian” garden/farm… the onlly thing i’ve read about the diet over time is for those folk there was not as many HOT HOTpeppers then of the famed heat of thai peppers thus as asiatic based genetics seem to go this leads to a iron deficiency as there just isn’t the same uptake of iron for SOME people without HOT HOT food. I would be laughing if there was a accurate map of the famed pepper regions of americas by heat and overlaid with iron uptake results over ages of time thus hypothetically showing that native americans based against the land bridge from asia theory long show promise and current absobtions studies to correlate give us a vegetarian diet that shows us heh how hot we need it. take you jalepeno medicine Junior! A Serano a Day keeps the Anemia away. but back to real life even if that wouldn’t be the worst thing to study, beans. they symbolize to many thecycle of life…My particular kidney beans don’t work but my recipe for sweet redbean onion bean dip is rather a fine source of iron… I don’t know the colour theory so well about foods either as in purple is a blood clotting factor eggplant, oyster/clams orange I know is often great for vitamin a, i.e. squash, carrot liver. but back to beans, I can roll out an egg pinch its ends to make a bean. I would like you now to imagine a whole mess of black beans with an onion and some curr powder to be starting the waters and after bubbling the beans I have a carribean black bean soup. I know my place does hot sandwiches with soup so perhaps I can sneak in enough mahon cheese…that lemony delight of the islands off spain to allow us a lemony cheesey delight to go with the deep living warmth of a fine black bean soup. We can disgust…discuss πŸ˜€ how one of those heros of greece chased the plant of life of which the bean is said to be so as to perhaps live forever. πŸ˜‰ oh and if you missed it, no, there is not much difference between an indian curry and an american chili…it’s of people and place but both are so similar.

more of the f u in my future is that chance to show why Chinese beef and broccoli firstly very much more american than chinese anyways takes the preparation ideologies of chinese food to show in a different way what we have already the same. beef, broccoli, sauce/gravy. chinese might prefer the sticky rice while americans might never get that but a pilaf… why is chinese food so much more labour of presentation? it’s not that a Chinaman wants to work harder NO, it’s because perhaps there is different resources available like time/fuel if you chop a vegetable you get shorter cooking times! fuel savings! quick meals too! this isn’t to say that a slow roasted bef thingy slices with gravy and a broccoli side isn’t pretty much the same ingredients just a different preparation style. for the art associating with this we’ve again playdough/sand to demonstrate the size and how long things are… I’ve cooked enough potatoes to know they take about 45-1:10 minutes typically by size to roast nicely through easy thing to show in relation to a huge log fire version tied grass bundles for the length of time to burn. but I also have a shot here…. look up the opening title sequence of MULAN by disney one or two and see the great minimalism involved to make a picture… we’re going neo hippy and making food art minimalist style be it tempura paint or watercolor.

I’m writing this now to remind myself of a day spent looking it al up

next is hieroglyphics. I know enough we can do pictogramic resolutions and also later hieroglyphics stydy proper… don’t you worry it’s an easy damn class… what’s so damn hard about what’s more to life than marriage a circle with more smaller circles and thus a small chain to a large ball of responsibility hobbling one to the slavery of choices…..ooopie, I’m garden pathing us to creeping death demise and malcontent but lets just say egyptian hiero glyphs aint all there are. we will write our names in foreign we will talk in pictures.

olmec – other mesoAmerican versions, eyptian and why is it the asians all do pictogramic writing? πŸ˜€ hint hint we’re so picturesque us humans.

well, I’m at around too close to a thousand words so…post end.


Denver Dreaming

Imagine the possibilities for just one moment You Want to be in this here Denver, Colorado, USA town *city and county* for it’s Vibrancy…or perhaps to turn a buck. You may want the Ritz and surely deserve it, but you must budget the possibilities… Well Let’s us tour My town on it’s ritzier or perhaps seemlier sides.

social media sayeth that according to the foodies… oh heaven forbid that I, a Foodie, might start with food. foodwise, list via Guy Fiery’s Diners, Drive-ins and dives, lists
Tocabe – a Navajo Inspired Indian Frybread Taco place which exists off of roughly
why? because you CAN invite your vegetarian friends for a taste of the very history of this USA with, the “indian” or native american culture being moved from a better destiny to that of the reservation yes, but still taste how culture can and will go on. Please also imagine the larger history of the world in that the Navejo Code Talkers of the USA in WW2 were just that Men serving their nations with pride using a rare resource of their cultural language no one else knew to talk code for their country’s/countries’ interests. NO ONE broke the navajo CODE. how can a person when you just don’t think chicken in English will sound like chicken excrement in Navejo!
There’s this Buck a scoop Chinese place of I forget it’s name off of Federal near US 285… it is the only place I”ve ever heard someone walk in and demand vegetarian of a not what I’d call a vegetarian place.
okay, so it gets a hit or miss as social media goes! BUT instead of nearly $10 like Toacabe, this is more like $3-5 for a hog’s portion of Chinese Grub. It’s location is fair more important as it’s on the highway circuit…to be 40 minutes from St Mary’s Glacier which for my money is a fine way to bring the Mountains of Colorado to any not-from here… Yes, Glacier means snow’s chance in hell as in August Snowball fights with your new intown friends or the one’s you brought along, surely if you didn’t think of cold icey down your undies your significant other might have!
Jimmy John’s Sandwiches. why them, the sell about thee most expensive sandwich of any fast food joint in town!… okay so one of my family works there and in all fairness said that it sure is possible with a little legwork to buy a bit of Jimmy John’s bread *day old isn’t a keyword here for free and it is NOT free, nothing at Jimmy John’s is – but also in Fairness You don’t WANT free Jimmy Johns You WANT to savor the treat that is well made even if you are on a budget. afterall, what is a crouton but not old bread and this in a huge form is a crusty chewy gem of bread with olive oile and balsamic vinegar both packets are available occassionally from the grocery chains if not but not always the actual JJ store. yes for a couple of bucks you can hog down something yummy somewhere with people you might wish to hobnob with. Consider the location near a fine Once Catholic Seminary now a fairly prestigious school DU Denver University, why? well they tend to ROCK in hockey and offer some of our more pretisgious families the chance to educate their next generation…perhaps because it’s so close to a safe enviroment to explore and get to healthy activities. πŸ˜‰
I’ve literally stayed over here. I therefore wont lie and say this is a GRAND hotel. it is not. what it is is about the most fun you can have exploring humanity and place. SAFELY. for you see what isn’t advertised is that it is literally across the street from the Police. it’s close to the biggest liguor store in denver town so if you wanna grab a six on the way out to say St Mary’s Glacier…AND WAITE TIL YOU GET THERE TO ENJOY IT! as no liquor of any kind is allowed on Denver Youth Hostel Grounds let alone inside! you can walk to Argonau liquors. I suggest against the fancy ass beers although my state is NO SLOUCH for choices Craft brew- I suggest Opici Sangria a $17 3 liter import of Spain in box wine as it’s sweet tastey good and cheap. if you must craft brew, Breckenridge Vanilla Porter cant be beat for yummy vanilla porter it runs about $10 sometimes $9 **neither price includes tax which is about 9% in many municipalities about the United States, sure, some are less, some try to cheat too, but get used to tax as it is the price too. now between catching or worrying about catching some tropical fungus in a low-rent hostel…I promise you they keep the place fumigated/clean and care but such is alas the worry about inexpense…someone before you failed to bathe…you’ll not note as its to be asked after, sought out! the roof of the joint where it’s possible for an unstable blind man me to safely egress if management will allow or wants in your pants, whichever is applicable..I hope ew, what a thought! πŸ˜‰ to roof. I love the view the ambience I’ve managed from the required fireescape if the key to the roof ispresent or from the laundry from the west portion of the upstairs. if you don’t remember your old music shame TOTO’s I’ll be over you shows New York City and the boys wanting to let’s do something! let’s do this.. oh lol the 80’s the language. but imagine on the low rent side this still is possible to sing to the trees *learner and Lowe* from the rooftops!

You’re also on the walking alley to Denver’s 16th Street Mall, this is the cities very HUB of Public Transit. you can have the free mall ride whisk you about this mob of city living with sights and smells and people for free in relative opulance and safety. okay it’s still a bus. in the middle of this and at it’s west end is the connections to the trainl w oine for $5 will take you alllll the way wwest to golden where you can end up…in jail woo. jefferson county court and jail is there along with a pretty city office. this is cab for under $20 to Alibabba Grill a fine mountainy feeling town food thing OR connects via bus and walk to Coor’s Brewing Company’s Brewery…this is part of now Miller, Molson Coors. or big company beer, the regular tour will blue moon you to death whoopie I did like the batch 19, or you can try after the VIP tour which offers more or less every coors product or otherwise made at that facility. if you take the e line to lincoln before it’s terminus is the ParkMeadows Mall which is an opulant place as malls go they may still have the discovery store which was fun. take the h line and at it’s terminus plus a little walk…. follow the PATH aurora is …saudi aruror driving! they’re everywhere and at war with you safely getting anywhere if you fail to utilitze the lights!/paths! to masala usa a nice south india eatery where the dosas are yummy and I liked everything albeit i can not pronounce everything nor spot the card to remake it later. shut up and eat I guess or wait for your order πŸ˜€ either way quite yummy and vegetarian…all vegetarian place btw. take the d line and not to it’s end as that’s a pretty view sure but in the middle damn no where πŸ˜€ get off at littleton downtown. you or your children remembering southpark will be at true home as southpark is actually in colorado it’s the old mini town of park city colorado at the foot of the mosquito pass which ends in what was once our state capital, Leadville Colrado…breifly now it’s denver. well park city is northwest of fairplay colorado where you can see the tourist trap of south park and perhaps find my favorite place in town for a eggplant parmesian sandwahich or whoever might lie and say they make said gem :D…butthe real littleton has a navajo streeet and alemo for a dinky 4 block downtown but, mckinner’s pizzeria good, savory spice or penzy’s spices both great shopping as is the trinket shop across from penzy’s. just note this town is quite barney pfief take the train as if you drive they camera enforce traffic law and thus if you see a flash of a camera that’s a 40-200 dollar privilage. the bes to boulder is also fun, I’ve taken it…the #B with the #205 to walk to Celestial a mintroom experience that you’ll wow your whole life and try to snap your galpal sittin in the sleeptime bear’s lap before the tour. or maybe you’ll do boulder’s walking mall the Pearl Street Mall and stop into a cool kite store. I’ll bet you’ll laugh when I tell you the little rocks in the middle boulevard were once mountain to me at 2/3 years of age! you can also hop the bus to the airport and thus skip about 2/3rds the cab cost out there. My current favorite place is a place called the whichoffers a fine mediterainian side salad homemade and the comercial hot seller hummus which has a bit of a ranch spices taste if you remember your ranch salad dressings/cream…a fine enough lentil soup near east style- I literally have ran into the then governor of my state while out to lunch and wanted to punch the asshole out for pattig me on the back as it couldn’t have felt any more false…. I didn’t punch the governor out or bad things would have happened like I’d have lost the fight he easily outclassed me size/speed and reach….not to mention that jail thing πŸ˜‰ but ew, icky politicians! other fine places are available and likely in walking distance from the denver youth hostel and are a few dollars each way or flat out free if you’re walking…

so, if ever you think you might like to travel to a scary land that thought we were better off making marijuanna legal and taxing it versus other control mechanisms… colorado. If you want to see some real hills, some of ours are easily accessible by car from the town – if you can not drive consider gambling town’s central city/blackhawk colorado from denver which is 22 ish round trip free booze while you gamble- sorry, I can’t say it’s a foodie destination any longer…just a normal all you can eat shrimp type with cost mind buffet. yee haw. so unexcitig. I can do better at a golden coral, i can easily overeat at any buffet which means if you hear me whine about them, it’s because they’re murder for my sugar control…meaning despite the conotation, they cant serve a lot of crap food, they actually serve a lot of tasty enough food which is the damned probleem how to say no and live!…however spoiled for choice most buffets fail to stand out…sorry. my favorite of all time isn’t even in this denver town/metro….and by concept isn’t unique as it felt it was at that time of discovery…. πŸ˜‰

come visit.
if you are all about your youngsters in your family or wanna have a terminal case of PRAM ITIS males are just perverts if they try,
and come on, I liked it when I was a kid! piss off,



the luck of this year is a present. I also got quite a lot of presents – thank youuuuuu universe and all you nice people too. luck however seems to be my favorite as I could have sworn I had to skip that line or forever return to the end of it just as the cheers went up someone got theirs. well, puke itwh your christmas drinks as we explore this.
I didn’t get a yes to my ask for help in perspective that smelled damned well like a date. I got an “I’ll think about it” which is so much like a no it might as well be time I mention I hadn’t long to wait to be surprised. I was able to find out that I’m not entirely crazy, current job is a tad frustrating when it feels like pulling out straws. the way this info came eliminated much of the need to ask into little ways to massage my way with others to improve things like respect perceived perhaps erroniously lacking. also, often I fight to honour the NO thank you given not wheel someone off to my activities like a willing victem whether they are or are not…it’s increasingly obvious that most do this and I’ve to carefully set the example this is against the law reallly πŸ˜‰ just the same way failing to come to a complete stop at stop signs in the night when no one is there which is increasingly turning out to not be the case….I know precisely that this doesn’t seem like different information than I’ve always heard nor am I my boss magically with years of trust in a facial tick to employ based on a solid record of positivements… but, it’s worth noting that I’m not too shabby. I was called in early on christmas to meet the new person and as you can imagine this meant aw shit weekend help…great let’s go train the replacement….woo wooo. πŸ˜‰ laugh on the battlefield and cry in the dojo… I really did laugh too, 14. school program. um… not for a good while can he do what I do, sure he can cost me mine if I’m not careful just as anyone can when you’rer esponsible for them…but more than likely I can enjoy some light evil. making work out to be work in that way it’s not really the slightest triffle for me but exceeding for another and such is low grade evil πŸ˜€ so, lets recap, I’m capable of running a safe enviroment for older children πŸ˜‰ in many many ways… how do I know, I made a nija star of paper. its not easy the first time and has a blizzard of confusing sounding instructions. yet if you watch how others participate…my job anyways…such demonstrates a lot of information… in simple direction following :D… and shush, if I was any better at it I’d apply for deity too. πŸ˜€ not.

next, while I didn’t achieve the freedom of financial power weilding in august of this year… I I can fight after it this month and next. I’m capable and did help people as I should do…I do not mean the loafages it seemed I suffered… but since that’s brought up. both people I helped obtained their jobs and places to live as paying adults…that’s not a shabby record at all 2/2 no, I didn’t do it for them and might not have even been helpful, BUT I was :D.

I have more of a wardrobe semi casual business not bumwear. I know this is luck as I didn’t buy it all. I also know like the above that I’ve gotten a lot of hidden to me seeming support to my hopes. this is odd because it’s been there and thanks. each hug. each aw.

now, remember an interesting concept ala πŸ˜› religeon. “to show us the way.” knowing as we all must surely see or complain about how the bleap should we get there? skip the actual religeon of how should we and there. just do so as the ultimate questions can sure lead to anger and dissention. but let’s take a smaller moment LUCK for me in real time with no hope it’s wow what a blessing but aw shit another boring class for someone else stuck oh hideous with a wreck ME….

the next thing I want in my maybe 20 hours of his gifted I actually might be able to make use of… in many crucial to me ways too, is:
more paper hell. if you would have seen how difficult it is to fold with thin paper any origami, you’ll see yet more coming πŸ˜€ this time if perfection is the goal of origami, and we’re not all artistes, now what? the tomoto soon enough rose. imagine the wavy roll of the water coming in as this “w” in letters just is jagged. imagine that on paper a long strip of pink lame paper as I bet I’m out of tomato red. now, the secret is in the imperfection. because when you roll it up not quite straight but in a cone you’ll get a beautiful simulation of a rose. I bet he chose this job because 20 more hours with cats sounded like hell….silly head, you didn’t know you signed up with ME. c’mon, be and think 14. my job cn be paint dry dull with spasms of hellish craziness, oodles of risk I personally must fight well to deal with. it’s not fun to do such duties seemingly and a large array of people just simply can not. yet this duty must be ingrained if there is a future to be had. yes, all those hours 16 a day for months on end running camp then with disabled folk now with a bright enough child to me and my residents…. come on light chaos! it’s worth it to see perfection but it’s just as magical to hope for a little pocket of enjoyment sneak through the malaise of days that are often my folk’s last and worse ones not wished to be remembered by their children. duty duty dooky. so a tomato rose, first in paper because art can represent before we waste more resources on precious chances to execute. there are just those two ways perfect…origami to the imprecise is a real bitch, roses an analogue beautiful of imperfection just as artistic. also as my punishment hour allows, that hint, my job and most jobs do pay for your smile and enthusiasm so much more than your actual skills which are expected…as he chose a white collar job because cats suck…. πŸ˜€ well then, we get the final hint that yes, a silly 40 blind guy runs a weekend activities thing in a fairly premeir place.. and it’s most assuredly not what it seems, it’s to gauge ongoing observed c facts to aide in care. it’s so much also political…he’s a social studies lover…well, diplomacy for 14 aint going to be perfect but well you’re getting a view of life why should josh the blind waste the chance for you to see – that there is some choice out there, be it manual labour or white collar, so as I work white collar political offerings, here’s how that works, are activites and I mean each and all are for observing just as much as I hope they’re some sort of fun. perfection is cool but so is a little moment rolled up…I’m lousy at perfect pretty so I focus on the latter. yet always keeping our effors listed in the category of what I really offered is a hallmark of that fight towards high placement… might not be his interess but what the hell I’ve a bit of enthusiasm to display a napoleon complex….gate gaurd being the first any sees so he’s the head of the company….:D this is my little 20 hour vision. wanna be a star? shit is what grows roses…roll in it well so as to be a flower not a cesspit mess :D…and hahaha, you should have stuck with the cats. great luck for ME how he views it? heheheheheh… light evil as I really don’t care πŸ˜€

or, merry christmas me. I got myquasi-date, I got a victem for a couple of weeks, okay okay I get health junk to watch too and not lose my mind but πŸ˜€ it sure does feel for a change like christmas. I didn’t get a rejection/cancellation of project I got nice things this year. I got my hearts desire to twart the evil restaurant singers into embarassing me with happy birthday! no one can quite guess my age right. ahhh. okay I have computer upgrading to attend. okay I have a couple of month’s struggles to make sure I reallign my finances to my ease. or in short there’s more to do but oo victem πŸ˜€ oo I’m not wholly crazy. yummy. what luck.


Kiddie Rides

I’m still in the kiddie-section of the Interweb’s Amusement life as I was discontinued for having old tech. I finally! ug, found time to investigate what needs doing and always it’s not quite insta-simple as one component upgrade but two…I need more ram and a new operating system, but to obtain these is a minor hassle and moderate to me expense…. I will point out that I did get a free keyboard and mouse and now smir as to why, I got my perk and lol little to nothing in macland is ever free so πŸ˜€ 5 months later I get to toss that free back out as it was known they would make redundant things and smarter ones just kept quiet but kept up the great customer service πŸ˜‰

comcast called me today after sending me my usual monthly bill not at the 170 expected but with a 50 credit… only to promise me it’s 130 or less. woot.

I own finally enough to work more than a week in pants/shirts. I lack ties and a dog training success without beating the creature into hating me that he really should eat my socks. and proper black shoes brown yes black no. I’m getting there. it’s nice that even my closet reflects I work again.

I’m perplexed at how beef jerky I can understand at advancing ages doesn’t get on with the system as well, but no boiled beef does…or low temps beef… this means bbq abcesses my teeth too. blankity! I like bbq…true slow roasty joys..but it’s just becoming murder for me. however the lunch place makes beans with burnt ends? now thats durn good…excepting that instant taste of sloow cooked beef that just seems to be causing a bad reaction… oh well, I’ll lament that til they take the whiskey away…I’d really be crushed if I couldn’t have mashed potatoes.

I look forward most to this week being plodded through over monday with two days off this time! before a bogus meeting and long weekend. but, πŸ˜€ it’s a bigger paycheck. these ones go to? realligning me into feeling more secure as in being disentangled m ore anyways of debts. I know I know there’ll be a day and I dance ever closer to knowing I’m roped into the long term dream of freedom long since gone…obligations all about… πŸ˜‰ I suppose i’ll find normal soon enough. that’s not kiddie-land.


christmas rewrites

I’ll have a bad christmas without you woo oo ooo. – charlie sheen sings blue christmas his way πŸ˜€

joy to the world oh no!Β  deploy round the world you ways are doneΒ  boom boom boo boom boom boom raining hell upon your soul maybe you’ll glow orange or greenΒ  hee hee hee hee I sing tee hee hee hee you shouldn’t have brought this dream oh stomp til glory’s achieved.


dead skunk in the middle of the road

I asked for a powwow with someone potentially helpful yet not in the mix of my actual job.Β  I don’t know if I’ll get a grudging yes or a not interested yet.Β  I hate asking for help and I endured the worry it can be the usual no try again anyways.

I got beer.Β  I got some of my next month’s supplies in the way of a sorry game.Β  I opted not for trouble as I didn’t like the eat the piece potential as sorry pawns have graspable edges to make respiratory removal easier than trouble.Β  I didn’t like my uno options as I cant see the barbie cards too well and I am your benchmark of performance.Β  I hated the “dare” version and didn’t want the lame disney one.Β  I will have to find time tomorrow to procur the books for storytime inbetween doc’s and work.Β  along with a competant culinary treatise on why chinese and indian food is made how it is. as all of these things relate to my scedule.

for instance, there isn’t much difference between a sliced beef and gravy with a broccolli sideΒ  versus chinese style beef with broccolli.Β  but both appear fundamentally different…. so too is an indian curry which at heart is nothing more than an american chili…. but why?Β  well worth annnoying the current chef about πŸ˜‰Β  residents interested in food.Β  no, I don’t plan to have a french dish with a montgolfier brothers presentation on hot air ballooning… not either time.Β  but this is national soup month coming up and πŸ˜€Β  I’m pulling a punch πŸ˜‰Β  maybe.

I cant say I’m over the annoyance of my worry.Β  but, I did do something to have it addressed.Β  I took my christmas money and such and poured it into bills.Β  I’ll take my check and pour it into being w weeks ahead on bills.Β  thus try to attack the ties to a job I’m having mental issues over finally.Β  I should know better and probably do as I emotionally seem to know everything just can’t put into words why..Β  it’s a real pity it has to appear to be a date to borrow my coworker for a chat but so be it.Β  I asked I may get a no afterall for that reason which would kinda be sad in that I’m not interested that way.


around celestial corners

I always get a haha about the solstice of our seasons… it’s like turning a celestial corner. that weird feeling not unlike turning as in spinning out in a car where one second straight on the road feels right but in the next 270 degrees around to proceed full speed into a ditch somehow also feels right. I’m up and it’s a quarter after four am.

marking time is a curious thing oh god huey lewis invaded

anniversaries are a curious thing
make a one man weap and another bird sing
I’ll stake your heart, you little white dove
let’s argue, push and shove

think about anniversaries. I have my moments memories powerful.
oh yes! let’s remember the orange sight of a face full of chewed carrot courtesy of kindergarden afterlunch!
it’s been 10000 days like angels since.. πŸ˜› …. or I’m being cynacal and or sarcastic.

I mean it’s been 20 years this cant really remember the exact day I started smoking at 20 I may watch that part in city slickers where the clerk shows up to the christmas party and tells dude in front of his wife she’s late….but before that news, her greeting is go away little girl…I’m not a little girl I’m twenty! I doubt you can help it you oldersters out there looking around at all that youth and sayingit’s soo soo mature πŸ˜€

I can remember the first time I nearly got some, I had an attack of conscience and felt like a sinner and quit prior to burning in hell.

I remember (sing the earth wind and fire september song now( the first time I got over to a friends and the party was in fulll swing and the job schedule said I was to skip most of that party… to be honest that’s an anniversary I can say is uplifting. I cant enjoy the grapefruit juice and bombay saphire gins as they interfere with my medication but about twenty years ago I couldn’t make it to work due to having far too good a time elsewhere and some weather..I neglected to call. don’t worry I also left that job when for the 7th time forgiven someone skipped out no call no show. or heh, karma will find you you misbehaviours :D.

13 months have elapsed officially since sis left home to new opportunity and I have a black cat.
18 months has elapsed since obtaining employment after 2 years 3 onths volunteering
it’s finally not crystal clear that day it was obvious I wouldn’t get her romantically. wait! which one? πŸ˜€

most anniversaries are bogus. trying to celebrate something that has a changing meaning through time. I mean losing a tooth is slightly painful yuck but the toothfairy thing is cool πŸ˜€ getting laid sure can be an experience. school being out because another said so with permission is an interesting feeling. first come with other firsts though like first home is also the first home often left. my first church heartache probably isn’t high on people’s lists πŸ˜€ My first tackle on the football field however inellegant was a pleasure. my first employment sure was a thrill to learn what it was all about however, πŸ˜›

I can remember plenty of tragics. but heh. it’s rather much more fun to leave it at : ashot gin poured together with ruby red grapefruit juice over ice πŸ™‚


Reprise… RePRIZE

When my email says this…
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when I’m told to be careful of material to share with those I work with and get an earful on my junior high level book is past the appropriate capacity of my folk only to pick up GRACE by h.m.s. rishards…what a ….. or chhicken soup for the soul for uplifting short stories about thanksgiving favorite family member deaths! I must admit I’m employed.

when I try to get on paper someone helping me keep up with one of my peoples at work who tends not to talk excepting to say she doesn’t wish to see ME. and after I cover clear information and even do so the next day to see on paper not what backs up what was communicated but something more indicative of person gas… I know I’m employed…and I will also again hear about it.

if any of you ever wonder why I’m cynacle, and believe me, I have my moments, just remember it isn’t always easy to communicate effectively with others or them me. I, did complete Highschool and all of my Undergrad English requirements…..but, I’m so forever me… so foreverr me that I get communicational prizes and surprises and legal reminders and not so legal documents…and have to fight just like you not to laugh myself silly every seeming single day…. I’m glad I fail. I can use the comedy even if you might say some of the work stuff is to be approached with grace and defference. for instance, this week or two I’ve not had on my fancy gold been there a spell nametag – why, because i can LIE and say if not in truth spirit! though so many situations are NEW to me.

Keep hoping with me I keep my temper so other’s may deign to instruct me still on the expected YOU SHOULD KNOW THIS! ways to get it not just done…. not just done right either… but done right quickly.

to give you an idea of why I’m not perfect but that I try. the christmas book set asside for my “poetry/stories” turns out to be an uber catholic sermon book wholly gory about christ’s sacrifice. the children’s book of poetics hasn’t any christmas poetry at all so to avert total tragedy we ran a reprise of MY favorite…please listen for the groans… make your poetry!

spruce, truce, juice, noose, goose.
freedom family food
green…ribbon fibbin’

noose is out. sorry. πŸ˜‰ goose is either a poke or pinch or dinner… I couldn’t get anywhere with the duck duck goose angle
juice got me cranberries but not sprintzers …martini seems the only ODD but partcipated way to obtain that reference
and thus, the words and some attempt at meaning is here for?

freedom for family singin’ ’round the spuce
Cranberry Martinis and that holiday goose
holding hands like presents done up in ribbon
santa’s comin’ or I’m fibbin’
holiday eggnog, COOKIES! and…TRUCE?

I’m not expecting you to say I collaborate or cajoul any better poetry out of others than what I myself invent. but I’d like to hear that instead of a chicken soup for the soul’s uplifting thought on how sometimes my day isn’t as worse as anothers or how so and so made an improession on me now that they’re gone or death death death is your salvation…which religiously is true to some but in this situation/time is about as tactful as sitting on one unexpectedly.(tactful – tack full ) or even if I flubbed first bat it always seems out, I am a determined one not to let my duties down just because I have to honour people’s wishes even when they conflict with my very job like I need to see you and the only progress in life you make and your wishes known is you do not wish to see me… I mean, seriously you should be touched! such progress is an absolute smiling triumph of therapeutic genius! find a way to get people living by HATING ME πŸ˜€ shut up it works. or, hug everyone, I’m in my trenches trying to keep my job and if possible do it well. sometimes all I get is more and more comedy.


Rewriting Elton

black cat, cross path
superstition misunderstood
yet I chase new days
and some mystic ways
boo boo aww, I never hear the words i should.