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quilted, for comfort.

bird chirp drips of the dawn

now sky burning away dreams

today a new day drawn.

 

lao tzu sayeth well

sadness, the past; anxious, future

peace is the now held.

my eye did esspied

upon the last cup poured, rum

rum coffee untried.

oh bird of beer hut

sing we don’t talk anymore

silently for us.

which is thee dang worst?

oh god thirty? or o’clock?

my mood, ala Hearse.

that is two! today.

having had to chase spellings

gamut and hearse, yaaaay.

with the dawn’s promise

details chase – doctor and bills.

unexciting, honest!

 

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I could have poemed.

it is not often I’m aware of much around me…not past the disconnected oh crap-danger avoid.  thus it was rather odd that a lil birdie slew with me awhile doing something I don’t do much of bicycling anywhere.  it was rather fun to see it soar forward  thben cross my path, then flag – only to catch me again.  I admit I did have a notion and hoped he’d not need to evacuate his bowel.

when describing this at the oh s-bomb it’s 2 am which became a couple of rudy maxa travelogues and a portion of julia and friends which first croutons and then jelly roll wedding cake with a choc mousse filling?   no, neither grabbed my attention for long and maxa was in south africa and then tahiti/island groups of said area.

I’m currently making coffee, same old boring probably crap proceedure of at least finger scrub the pot as if it was left empty from last brew and also toss the basket and rinse/wipe that too this time with a sponge as I can get much into a crevice with my fat fingers.  and methodically fail to measure the coffee but appear like I do. fill machine perc.  it promises to be boring normal american morning special. 😉  

I’m slightly finger touch warm after a sunny morning out.  there is a great chance I got me some sunburn.  that wexplains the early to rise 

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the review is in….pencil

I finished my review while hanging out for the instruction on “her way” day.  I am after a year, a topped out payscale employee for my grade completing an overall stacked B grade  stacked meaning 100-92 A, 92-84  B, 84-76 C…who cares “F” left.  I am about orwellian 84%  war..unh good god y’all, war, what is it good for? absolutely nothing I’ll say it again…..later.  I have this achievement within a review cycle including a perfect 100% state review perhaps every three years ish, and a year with zero incidents within my sphere of department.  I am blind,thus suspect for seeing across a room to spot/correct trouble and have achieved that bit of good fortune.  Iwasn’t the first choice but ultimately beat out 22 other applicants and or employees for my job- should I trust what I’m tol.  this is coupled with the annoyance of not yet able to move on to greener adventures so I had to ask for a training day to cover a hardship of mine which is due to not seeing but in this case symbolically moreso to see a job and do it self-starting probably the largest irritant of hiring me that I am not largely or often that way. thus, I have one thing left to say on the subject – I am no longer for summer and likely forever a six point five hour day sub/weekender I have about the full hours day from here on out.  I can not any longer be expected to achieve my dutiescurrently taking on a tiny bit more of summer gardening “” the current reason for more hours… within the time I have.  thus  there you have it, I’mgraded achieved in a snobby enough upscale job being otherwise new to it in keeping with their standards of a bit better than elsewhere.

 

I point this out with a minor sense of embarassment to have worried or cared I wouldn’t….and a bit of a let down feeling that I made more of it than I needed to have had.

 

I didn’t buy a twelve pack but a fourty of mickeys fine malt liquor which is what I remember as about the first neferious deed of trade I made….in highschool oh about 25 years ago….ish  I wonder if that alone seems somehow to be appropriate..  while I top out in my pay range the simple additional duties help aid this being about a 200% pay raise not some sissy 3%  who says i’m not only good but lucky too?

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puzzler and my monday.

I’m mondaying at work just done with that and the glass

of wine.

I just got a checkcard I don’t recall ordering… but then again I know vividly the blessing of the thing and the security hassle of them so yay but phone call required…you know wtf?  I typically haven’t renewed my atm only card in 2 years so to see this finally is right on that timeline just again weird.

 

I am proud of my day in that I passed food typically something not granted me to do and circumvented the food pass that apparently was taken over for me again hidden in the behind the scenes weeds of my job 😀  damn it, if the schedule said so to the best of my abILITY.  i MEAN i FLUNKED OUT OF ART BECAUSE i CAN’T PAINT FOR SHIT SO PARDON ME IF i TAKE A PASS ON MANICURES AND OR FINGERNAILS PAINTING.. NOT A SKILL :d  BUT i CAN MASSAGE AND HAVE SOME RUDIMENTS OF HAND WORK I.E. PALMISTRY. COURTESY OF A BOOK AT MUM’S.  BUGGER ON THE BAIT AND SWITCH.  i’M JUST NOT GOOD AT MANICURES :d ONE MUST DEAL.

 

i MADE UP BY HELP SOME ICED APPLE TEA FOR MY TEA AND ROYALTY AGAIN NO WHERE WAS MY READING MATERIAL AVAILABLE  AND AGAIN, i’M NOT OUT OF LUCK, TIME LIFE VIKING BOOK OF HISTORY, WHEN THE LONG SHIPS SAILED IS HERE  MY DELIGHTED LACK OF AUDIENCE.  WHEREIN YOU WOULD HAVE HEARD HOW KING HAROLD ASCENDS THE THRONE  AT TEN AND WHEN THE LOINS ACHE FOR SOMEONE TO WARM THE BED, HE FINDS GYRDA OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND ASKES AFTER HER… SHE SAYS”i WONT WASTE MY VIRGINITY ON YOU i MAY MARRY YOU IF YOU PUT NORWAY UNDER YOUR FEET.  HE VOWES NO BATH OR HAIR CUT AND SPENDS TEN YEARS DOING SO ACQUIRING EIGHT OTHER WIVES IN PROCESS AND THEN DIVORCES ALL NINE FOR SOME OTHER BITCH IN DENMARK AFTER KILLING GYRDA’S FATHER… FROM WE GET WOMEN’S COUNCILS ARE COLD.  i’D SAY SO AS IN SO ARE MEN’S 😉

i CAN NOT HOWEVER TRUST MY DAY AS IN HOWEVER OFTEN i TAKE PRIDE IN IT, i’M FLABBERGHASTED BY THE REALITY OF SOME SHIT i AINT BEEN AWARE OF THUS WORRY NOW EVERY TIME i’D LOVE TO REST UPON LAURELS.

 

i DID UP A BIBLE QUIZ OF 30 BOOKS LISTED IN TEXT WHERE IN i GOT NINETEEN ISH NOT QUITE A C BUT BEST MY FAMILY 50% OV3ER TWIE.. i’M SURE THE CABAL MASTER OF BS CABALISTIC MEANINGS.  AND THUS, IF YOU’D LIKE TO PLAY ALONG THERE IS 55 BOOKS OF THE BIBLE.  NONE OF THE 1’S AND 2’S NEED OCCUR AGAIN THUS DROPPING THIS LIST SOME.  WHAT FOLLOWS IS THE TXT.

 

FIND THE BIBLE IN OTHERWISE WORDS. QUIZ

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When you need something to do.

Bible Question

There are thirty books of the Bible in this paragraph.  Can you find them?

 

This is a most remarkable puzzle.  It was found by a gentleman in an airplane seat pocket. , on a flight from Los Angeles to Honolulu,keeping him occupied for hours.  He enjoyed it so much, he passed it on to some friends.  One friend from Illinois worked on it while fishing from his john boat.  Another friend studied it while playing his banjo.  Elaine Taylor, a columnist friend, was so intrigued by it she mentioned it in her weekly newspaper column.  Another friend judges the job of solving this puzzle so involving; she brews a cup of tea to help her nerves.  There will be some names that are really easy to spot.  That is a fact.  Some people however, will find themselves in a jam, especially since the book names are not necessarily capitalized.  Truthfully, from the answers we get, we are forced to admit that it usually takes a minister or  scholar to see some of them at the worst.  Research has shown that something in our genes is responsible for the difficulty we have in seeing the books in this paragraph.  During a recent fundraising even, which featured this puzzle, the Alpha Delta Phi lemonade booth set a new sales record.  The local paper, The Chronicle, surveyed over 200 patrons who reported that this puzzle was one of the most difficult they had ever seen. As Daniel Humana humbly put it, “the books are here in plain view, hidden from sight.”  Those who are able to find all of them will here great lamentations from those who have to be shown.  One revelation that may help is that books like Timothy and Samuel may occur without their numbers.  Also, keep in mind, that punctuation and spaces in the middle are normal.  A chipper attitude will help you compete really well against those who claim to know the answers.  Remember, there is no need for a mad exodus.  There really are 30 books of the Bible lurking somewhere in this paragraph waiting to be found.

I spell checked the copy I have and double proofed it to be correct as I was given it.  I have the following answers

mark, john, joel, judges, job, esther, hebrews, james, ruth, romans, titus, genesis, philemon, chronicles, daniel, lamentations, revelation, timothy, samuel, peter, exodus,  (esther and titus found while typing and proofing. or 19, 21) feel free to best me, I didn’t and still haven’t looked up the books of the bible to see if I cant improve this further – there is nothing saying you can not.

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defrenestrate debianI a

if I misspelled defrenistrate fuck off.  I couldn’t care less.  I’m irritated.  another many days goes on with no working completely machine ala internet youtube because I needed it to do one damned thing more so I can do one damned thing more and… as usual it doesn’t I found it wrecking everything going and oh yeah debian linux is thee best, worthless piece of incomprehensible nothing fucking works shit.

 

is it this bad? no.  am I waiting for an ethernet pulled not faster wireless pulled version of anything but? you bet.  did I lose a hard drive out of data safe til yes, did I waste days trying simple thing only to find out it’s detail oriented and case sensitive needlessly? yes.  I mean it’s not that big a deal to type out both a user account and a password but to find out both are case sensitive and required is the heart of annoyance as is both seperate passwords for root and user accounts…. it’s thus four times the hassle to get anything out of this machine and of course right on schedule none of the syntax is correct for yet another flavor of linux so all the help is useless past what I already know which isn’t very much hence bummer call picking a good otherwise distro of unix.  it is of course my fault entirely and I just do not have time for this kind of horse shit.

 

I’m due to work alllllll weekendend again.  thursday through sunday which is nice in that more money fore me.  however such is a pain in the ass having to beg to be more useful because I cant just quit as I finally am working on shit that matters directly to me. and thus I’ll enjoy the usual hardships of it’ll take twice as long as it seems it should to be closer….. but again I can not just up and give up on myself.  I like me and my goals and hopes…or just more beer. whichever you would rather believe.

 

I will say I went all year as an incompetant by how I was trusted blind person to achieve partially two important things.  not one single incident happened in my department all this year employed.  we achieved a building wide perfect state review…perfect.  thus 😉 I am that good. knock on wood.  just not at deciphering wonky debian uselessness nor hitting the button called enter to excute a comand on my television remote causing me weeks of irritation of it not working 😀  

 

I made a corned beef roast with yellow flesh potatoes… placing a bottom;s worth of near coriander cilantro flowering in it.  I just ate the last of it.   I dislike the latest couple of beer selections magic touch…no, midas touch which is a muscat and safron bottom taste to cover the barley wine yuckiness… ick, too strong.  I’ve a round or two of mussels to cook up with rotel and red not white whining about it 😀  and I’ve no interest in this red mud river jamaican red lager.  ew.  not all calls are good or executed well.  not all my efforts amuse me.  certainly not admitting I need to step it up at work if I’d like to avoid some annoyance about being constantly valued and professional….about the only way I know of to avoid irritants like worrying about being screwed or hosed or fired because by necessity I know more to avoid more 😀

 

ick, talabout annoying.  to have to beg to be of more use.  oh boy howdy dxid that get a yes so fast I’ll be wroking alll weekend thursday on, yay my goalsa are closer 😀 😀  ubunutu is downloading it’ll take all the rest of today to do so on ethernet  unless I want to stop and switch computers and swipe a copy I already downloaded but didn’t put on this computer’s disk chip thingy.  and believe me that’s a horrendous hassel because it’s so much harder for me to read a 40 something inch screen than this fifteen.  it’s called visual acuity and it is extremely limited as is no mouse so no easy screen uptick in size so fourty inches of way too small to read and further apart to boot.  I’m enjoying this  moment to whine about it.  really 😀  

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notes from the soon enough underground

firstly, no, none of my residents are of the criminal sort of the dostoevski novella.  Unfortunately though, they soon enough will not be with us as one doesn’t enter a nursing home to do much more than wait for god…bbc sitcom if you’ve not seen it -for shame!  I am not up on my technology on this computer nor are any of the fixed ones “fixed as my lost another drive and I refuse to chase another drive’s money into it and this 3 day project ish still runs but i cant get after some things like full a/v anymore and nor  am i allowed to update it any longer so like um, I may sadly be out of touch a spell as i’ve no reader screen any longer.  I wont know when you post as I can not remember all of you lot by name and web address.  but now that the announcements are covered, the point.

I didn’t think it was possible for a room with 5000 years experience going to giggle like a bunch of school girls and carry on about today’s run for california chrome favored to be the first  triple crown winner in my lifetime.  but they did.  I tried to be useful.  it’s not often you see interest in my halls and such…. I was glad of it.  Calaifornia chrrome was short a leg for the last installment of history in the not made.

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mathmatically proven.

12 – 2 x 6 + 2 / 2 =

it’s ugly having to be reminded that I was never much of any good at algebra.  it’s answer is Englishman’s BIDMAS, or  PEMDAS for us Americans PEMDAS.. which is tricky enough in a land of logic to give one a lot of choices… 31, 1 -1, 4, 8… etc. but the answer is 1 as 12, ignore as it’s a subtraction for now the last operation dealt with, 2 x 6 = 12, next Addition ignore for now as there”s division 2 / 2 = 1, now Addition, 12 + 1 ??  dink, this would get one a -1 result if you follow it…. so convert each operation as you can 12, -2, 6 +2, /2 ;  -2 X 6 = -12,  now + 2 / +2 is +1, combine 12 and -12 for zero and a plus 1 and voila, after I look the chump, I get the correct answer. 😉

why is looking good first not eventually so damned important?  because, in my little world the face associated with right first is right and listened to or just right… powerful or potential. Eff potential as I’d rather actual?  heck I’d rather sometimes to be wrong and listened to than right and who cares.  Let’s take a ticket to real street and note that it’s the proof in the end that matters.  knowing we’ll al win some and lose some is humble yet true, so why rush to be wrong… sure we all like the limelight of conenctions but it only takes so many wrong moves to be out of the limelight.  lasting influence is trying to be right not rushing to squawk about  hey look at me! 

 

I’m not very good at my job.  SHHHhhhh! I didn’t say I sucked and whined about my merit as believe me, I’ve SOME MERIT..  Celebrate with me that today Sunday June 1rst is part of the pay cycle that is my anniversary of a year there and as I worked it, you cannot say I didn’t make my year technically.  I do still offer up my own activities, run my schedule given to me or someone else’s influence.  I managed once to be late all year and yet no other in this time of my supervisor’s tenure has done that well.  I have managed thrice to offend caretakers in some fashion directly linking my actions to their complaint…ooopie.  I have managed to offend my building admin director twice….oopie.  my offered employee hired made it 6 months before incident that hasn’t resulted in release or lingering issue.  I haven’t brought a customer to the place yet.  I haven’t dated staff resident (ha!) nor family of staff so my chances of issue are present but overall low.  I am part of a perfect survey by regulatory agencies.  Job Duty spectum and that of the department shows I can do scheduling assisting, I also can and have worked the fill in for illness, unfortunately not the full time off for the department head as quarantine bullocked that…but I am not allowed into the heart of my job of basing known medical orders and issues with a comprehensive activities plan, nor do I work the meetings angle of each resident’s care plan.  so even at a year I’m a temp worker filling in.  now. this is actually fine enough, there is progress and reality enough to be pleased with what I have proven not am simply capable of.   proven.

I interrupt myself to say yay, my tv isn’t broke, I am the victem of about the first huge boob move or ID 10 T error of not pressing enter for my source selection and wondering why I get no signal 😉  my computer is still broke, but my whole system is not. yay.

I thus have to admit as this pivotal moment of change after being down the road it a spell, is not dead in the water, but neither is it a complete dream come true either.

I file my second round of the the current big push towards financial powers growing with the lion’s share due done end of july.  I should be able to be debt free and a paycheck in the bank as I hoped in August.  I should have a chance to travel yet again as well perhaps twice not including about town fun moments like:

karma Asian

22 s broadway

denver

$ – $$

happy hour specials with appetizer drink and a shared entree outting are reasonable at $11 -14 per person otherwise you can let your wallet bedhave like a big 70’s V8 peddle to the metal in 4 low…it will drain the gas about as fast as money leaving your wallet. 

rock collecting

James Peak / Moffat Tunnel

near Rollinsville CO

roadside not actual train-track bed rock is all over the place and I called it free and left before anyone said any different 😀

there is a nice thrill of hoisting a can of beer to the engineer as the train wails past.  the scenery is pretty but finding out the phone camera has no battery is a bit of an annoyance 😀

“Day-trip-pin” to NYC seeing my friend it turns out at the last effective healthy oppurtunity before he passed.

as I say, I have managed to do things I directly wanted to do… even affording a klunker or two of things not going as planned.  I see no reason short of financial goals as yet unmet, not need to be overly concerned about longevity whether or not the review includes a raise or pehaps some additional benefit.   I don’t wish to work there forever offcycle to life and friends day’s off but now is not really the time to bemoan that too heavily.

the other longer=term pro’s coming are october 2015 is 2 years 3 months or a garunteed 8 quarterly work credits just on the off chance I’d ever need to reapply for ssa programs. my december birthday 2015 is a match and extension of the longest big boy job held.  but as you can grant me this, it’s just not worth being so very out there til I’m there or past it..one foot in front of the other repeat.

I wouldn’t mind doing care planning and later care conference sit=ins as this coupled with an entire sceduled month planned and executed is proof I can be the big cheese if I’m good enough at it.  these type of things may not happen within the lifecycle of my current supervisor.  refer to the above as to the lengths of time involved, it’s just not worth the nose=sweat worrying, it’ll happen when it does.

I suppose then the only thing left to medium term is clear the accounts as planned both credit proven zero prior to re-use.  get a set of good appliances, i.e. the main house stove hasn’t had a working oven in half a year, the washer recently enough replaced used has a timer issue of having to be manually advanced til it’s filled and agitating – saianara to it soon enough. I already have a dishwasher for my place but I’d like a microwave damn it….this requires electrical work. 

I’ll want a new bed that I can carry thanks not a 200lb mattress that never quite fits any apartment room.  hint 80=100 no more full sized mattreess with a split box  for smaller/tighter situations…oh just shhh it on the bedroom talk.  of course I currently need a new computing system as mine is dead or more properly going through hard drives in days at 50 a crack.  I’d like to get some stereophonic man-cave treasure of audiophile on a budget magic.  I’d like to travel off the north-american continent. 

all fine reasons to be proud I made it this far; all the more reasons to keep but more carefully taking it in the pants to keep the gravy train rolling.